Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Help? *all trigs*

[~Kaytee~]

I dont know, I just need some support.
I had a bad night on tuesday where i was considering going to the hospital. i didnt..but im still feeling really low and stressed. im waiting on a phone call then im going to see my doctor. i just dont know if i can do this. i want to do some really good damage. i want to be away from here. ive stuffed up majorly

[Stellata]

What's stressing you? It sounds like you're feeling very self destructive at the moment. I hope that your doctor can offer something to help.

[Cryptic.]

I can relate to the wanting to do serious damage feelings, & the disappointment/feelings of failure when you haven't.

I really think you should go to hospital if you feel deep down you should, if only to be safe, & better safe than sorry.

My good friend killed himself in 06, & before he passed away, he regretted it deeply, so it does go to show that the majority of people who kill themselves & succeed, regret it & it isn't truly what they want, & I'm sure you really don't want to do serious damage...

I hope you get some much needed help, and by the sounds of it, wanted help too.

We are here for you, keep talking to us.

x

[~Kaytee~]

Thanks. Have added all trigs just in case. ED is kicking in bad. haven't done anything else yet. i wish i could say exactly whats going on. all ill say is ive made a stupid mistake, and poor judgement and looks like it will land me in serious trouble. i have never been in trouble before. im so scared. i have no immediate plans for suicide, i dont think i used the trigger label right. i dont know. i just want the situation to go away. i dont even know who else to talk to. what do i say to the doctor? if i go to the hospital what do i tell them? i just cant believe this. a simple mistake.. ive been trying to get a few health problems sorted as well which im also seeing the doctor about. thanks for the replies. ill see how i go tonight although the alcohol and blade are looking soo tempting i dont know who ive become

[Cryptic.]

What's the ED saying?

You say to the doctor how you are feeling, what you are thinking, and what you would like to happen. Be honest. It will help in the long run.

If you go to hospital, well, why do you think you need to go to hospital? Maybe I could suggest what to say if I know why you're going.

Drinking & cutting won't help, it'll make things worse when you're sober & lucid.

It isn't worth it lovely, it really isn't.

x

[~Kaytee~]

i saw my dr. i cut again last night, couldnt help it. but i didnt drink. i was pretty well honest with him. im on some new meds to try help me and im starting to see a psych. i dont feel any better, ive let people down, im a disappointment to my family and friends. idk.

[MissCobain]

*cuddles*
Be good to yourself dear =( I'm sorry its been so hard for you lately, I've had a hard time too, so I know where you're coming from.