Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Apathetic. triggers ed

[[LittleMonster]]

Past few days felt the lowest ever. my parents won't speak to me.i wanna be skinny but can't even do that :( i have some problem with my body and i know i should see a doctor but can't be bothered. i no longer have psychologist or psychiatrist just some stupid ed services which doesn't help my mood. . i have exams in a month. the most important ones that decide if i go to university or not but i just don't care. i just wanna end it all :( what's wrong with me :( im sorry. x x

[Defender Of The Faith]

I don't really have any advice right now, as I'm in a similar situation and don't really know what to do myself, but I'm here if you want someone to talk to, yeh?
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[[LittleMonster]]

Thank you. sorry to hear you're struggling too :( i sorta feel like im just existing rather than living.

[Defender Of The Faith]

Yeh, I know. It feels like no matter how hard you try, nothing's ever gonna change, so what's the point in trying? But... I guess the one thing I can say to you is that eventually, something WILL change. It has to. All we gotta do is hang on till it does.
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[[LittleMonster]]

Yeah i guess. i keep saying it will get better once i get to university but right now i won't even get there as i have no motivation to even revise so :(

[Defender Of The Faith]

Yeh, I'm in that position too. I have 3 textbooks to learn in about 5 weeks, and I'm so far behind that I've just... Given up. But, you know, even if you don't get into university, it's not the end of the world, right? I mean, you can go out, get a job, and you never know, that might be the best thing in the world for you. Or you can always retake your exams next year. But there are always other options, yeh?
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