Graphic / Triggering - cant take anymore (trigger SI, SUI, SA, OD)

[nicole94]

i want to die. my self harmings gone back to being everyday and quite severe, i want to OD all the time, and i cant STAND it that i have to see my abuser everyday, because he goes to the same school as me. i dont know how to make myself feel better anymore, i just dont see the point in holding on. i dont want to talk to my psychologist again, or my doctor, nothing comes of it. according to them theres nothing wrong with me. i'm just having normal teenage experience, and dealing with them badly.
someone please help me see the light at the end of the tunnel??

[Gone.]

There is a light at the end of the tunnel- I wish you could see my torch to help you find that. It sounds so difficult to have to see your abuser everday, wearing not to be able to talk about it and painful to have to continually self-harm. Does anyone know about this, a friend, family member, teacher or professional? Writing things down or doing some sport might help you get rid of some of those feelings your harbouring and finding so exhausting.

Take care xx

[Pierrot]

If your doctors have told you there's "nothing wrong" with you, or that you're just failing to deal with your experiences, it sounds to me like you need different medical/psychological support. They shouldn't be making you feel bad or belittled about this. Having to deal daily with the person who's hurt you is hard, and it does have serious mental and physical health effects. There's no argument about whether what you're dealing with is "legitimate" or "serious," and your doctors should be professional enough to know that.

Have you told your parents about any of this? Could you turn to someone at school, perhaps--a counselor, or teacher? It does sound like you need a caring and invested advocate. In the meantime, do you have any kind of distractions available to you during the day while you're at school? Even something like drawing or journaling (which is easy enough to disguise as note-taking or homework, if you're in dire straits in class) might help at least temporarily ease the stress.

[SheHasHope]

Sometimes the best thing is to get some rest. A long rest away from the world for a little while. To do that you have to talk to a doctor again.

Things will get better. It seems like an empty promise, but you have to believe it.

[crazykat]

There is light at the end of tunnel, I know that's hard to believe when you are feeling this bad but you can get through this. If you give up now you won't get that chance to see that things can get better. It must be hard to constantly see your abuser everyday at school, does anybody else know about this so they can help support you with this? I am sorry your doctor and psychologist have treated you like that. No one has the right to treat you like that. Is it possible to get support from someone else? Like a another doctor? or school counsellor? Hold on there hun. Take care
Kat xxx