Triggering (SI/Suicide) - So low

[melda]

I feel so low right now, i just feel like what's the point because I'm not going to change and neither is my mum. I just want her to hug me and tell me that things are going to be ok rather than looking at me and getting angry when I'm upset. She just stands there and when I ask for a hug, she lists all the things that she does for me. I feel so alone and like I'm not meant to be in the world. I just want to die.

[Snow White.]

Have you tried talking to her calmly and telling her what you want from her, what you want to hear? Please don't give up, I know things might be hard but nothing is worth ending your life over; things change even if it doesn't feel like it. I've been through many times like this with my mum but as we've gotten older they've stopped occurring, so things do change.

What support do you have at the moment in your life when you're feeling this low?