Hey Guys. I've done really well with not self-mutilating, but my other addiction as a recovering addict is KICKING MY ASS. I want SOMETHING. ANYTHING to make me feel good. Lucky for me, I wouldn't know how to find a dealer if my life depended on it, and all my doctors know that I am a recovering addict who can't have narcotics. BUT I WANT DRUGS!!! NOW!!! It's like one or the other...cut or use drugs...and neither is an option that I need right now. But I am climbing the walls.
