i really dont know were to start
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i have been pushed into a course i dont want to do and it a wast of time
i have tried to tell them that but they are not listening to me they say it will help me, give me somthing to do but it wont
i have cut today and i want to do more
i want to take sum tablets as well
the help im gettin is no good so im going to end it they r doing nothing for me
ARGH im soo mad at them. Then my dad and 2 brothers take into me about gettin a job and how lazy i am, it prob would be better if i wasn't here one less person to worry about
what course have you been pushed onto doing? is there something you want to do? if there is maybe you can talk to whoever is doing the pushing?
as for the cutting and tablets, i know it's difficult and although they do help short term, nothing gets resolved because of it. please don't end it either. :( you're strong and can make it through this, i've seen some posts you've made before and you've come too far to quit now :)
i'm sure your dad and brothers care about you. why are they trying to get you to get a job? my mum MADE me get a job when i was in U6, i really hated her for it at the time but it made me so much more independent in the long run.
*hugs*
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its IT and u do english and maths too but i dont want to do it im not going to waste my life on it, i want to do child care but i cant because i have a police record my life is really fucked up, i tried in the nice possible way to say no i wasnt going to do the course but she never got the picture and just kept pushin me for it, but im not doin it, im not!
who was it that told you to do it? it's pretty annoying if you have a police record but sometimes i think depending on what your record is it might only stay there for a short time? if that's the case then maybe you could do something else for the time being and go back to do child care later? is it a college course? tbh, if someone's giving you advice to do something, she should make sure you're comfortable with it or guide to towards something you want to do other than child care if you can't.
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I'm sorry your being pushed into doing a course that you dont want to do. I must admit that it sounds like a great course though. Alot of companies want you to have good IT skills and they also want you to be computer literate, which is why when i left school i went to college because i felt that if i just went straight into a job i wouldnt have any skills and the job would be something i dont like as well as being minimum wage and not having many skills.
I hear you about not wanting to do the course and that you want to do Childcare but that you cant as you have a police record. In some cases if you do have a police record it doesnt stay on your record although it does depend on what your police record is. If you really dont want to do the IT course then that is understandable. Who is it that said you should do this course? Please dont od, its not worth it and it will just make things worse. Please try not to harm yourself, try to distract yourself as much as you can. Have you looked at the Big Distractions Page? Stay safe.
my CPN is the one who is pushin me to it she never listens to me it like we r going around in circles and i have a police record for a year and yeah its a college course. i really dont want to do it
if it's only for a year, maybe you could take a year out, get a job like your family want and then go back to do child care?
also, i agree with monsoon, it courses are in demand these days and you can do a lot with them.
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tonight i have really strong urges to OD i cant hold out any longer i have to do it, there's no reason for me to stay around, everyone hates me and i hate myself SH doesn't work anymore so i have no choice. i cant keep going :( help anyone
Hi,
I'm sorry you're having a really hard time tonight. Please don't OD. You can keep going, and you will survive this. There are plenty of reasons to stay around; us, your friends, your family.
I'm sorry that SH isn't working for you anymore, but maybe that is a good thing? For me it took getting to that point to finally start recovering.
Is there anything you can do to help make it through the night? Are you able to talk to someone? Your dad? A friend?
And we don't hate you, stay safe for us.
Isabella
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
to let use all know im still here :( i wish i wasnt its sooo hard just to carry on with no sleep and really bad urges its all going to get to much and im going to explode :(
i just cant be borthered fighting anymore i try to keep on my dad good side and do things that he wants me to do but he doesnt want any of my family to know whats going on and i need them but if i tell dad that he takes a big mad fit at me. i feel really alone there is no one here to help me i really im going to explode i cant take it anymore
You're not alone. Is there anyone you can talk to about this? Your aunt? The rest of your family? Are you able to talk to them without your dad knowing?
Stay safe,
Isabella
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
You're not alone; we're here. You can talk to us. Are you able to talk to you dad or ring a helpline?
Can you tell us more about what's happening right now?
Isabella
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
i cant talk to my dad he goes mad at me, i would ring a helpline but dad will hear me talking and ask questions after i get off the phone and i cant be bortherd fighting with him anymore, i have meeting all this week with different people and tomarra i meet a doll from zest who i hate and she doesnt help me she makes me feel worse i want to leave, i only have 2 more meeting with her but i cant take it. i cant c me gettin though the nite.
