Triggering (SI) - Failure.

[lilyespererx]

I really am annoyed right now.
I went on chat to ask for a bit of support and was chatting with a person and they left, and another started speaking very rudely to me.

I've already been having an awful night, and I feel like nobody cares about me and that I'm completely failing at everything I'm doing.

And being told "fail" after a silly error in chat and being spoken to like a goddamn child has confirmed my anxieties that I'm a pathetic waste of space.

I want to curl up in a ball and just cry.

I have a really bad urge to cut right now, and it's really becoming difficult to cope with it.

ugh.

[jessicat]

report them? no one should be speaking rudely to you on here, im shocked!

you are not worthless, & i bet a lot of people care about you!
you just cant see it, please try to not harm yourself, im here if you
need some support :)

-big squishy hugs- ♥

[lilyespererx]

I send a message and the chat logs to a mod but I don't know how to properly report them and it'd be too late now anyways.

:/ I'm trying to just get past this but I need a lot of support and I don't want to burden anyone by asking for it. I feel so needy and I hate it.

*hugs* Thanks.

[jessicat]

you are not a burden, at all. :)
i dont go on chat, so i dont know how the reporting thing really works, sorry.
but at least you've sent the logs to a mod, hopefully it will be sorted. :)
we can all get a bit needy sometimes, but its nothing to be ashamed of!
hell, im really needy most of the time.
its really good that you're trying to get past this.

how are the urges now, still the same?

♥

[lilyespererx]

thank you :)

I hope it gets sorted, as well.

Urges are gone, went and took a hot shower and just cried it out.

thanks for being here, I super appreciate it. <33

*hugsforeternity* :]

[jessicat]

no problem :)
its good to have a good big ol' cry sometimes :)

how are you today? x

-huggs!- ♥

[xbeckyx]

Hey how are you today?

[lilyespererx]

Quote:

Originally Posted by -Kenny.

no problem :)
its good to have a good big ol' cry sometimes :)

how are you today? x

-huggs!- ♥

It is.

I'm doing okay.
Been up and down for a few days, having a hard time sleeping and crying a lot at night and having pretty bad dreams. :/
Trying to deal with it, though.

[lilyespererx]

Quote:

Originally Posted by xbeckyx

Hey how are you today?

Hey thanks for asking. <3

I'm doing okay, just trying to deal with lack of sleep, random bouts of crying and lots of bad dreams. :/

How are you? :]