Mentally detached/anxiety

[takattack]

I was sick for a couple weeks, then got antibiotics. Then I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics, and had to be put on a steroid. I quit taking the medication yesterday because it made my anxiety hundred times worse. I had a horrible attack last night to where I couldn't breath or think and I was curled up in a ball shaking and crying, convinced I was dying. Since, I've felt completely detached from reality. This is nothing new, but it's never been to this extent. Anxiety is a common thing in my family and I have always been able to not lose myself in it, but with that medication amplifying it, I can't seem to get a grip. I know the steroids will clear out of my system in a few days, but I feel like I can't make it that long. I'm also scared I won't snap back. Things finally just started going right, and now I have to battle this instead of enjoying what should be a happy time. I keep freaking out. I am totally out of it. I have only had a few moments of relief throughout all this. I miss myself so much and I just want to snap out if it and have everything be back to normal. I'm crying now and I'm not entirely sure why. I am scared. I hope I'm okay. I don't want to go to a doctor again. I'm tired of shoving pills down my throat, that only make me worse. Please tell me you understand, tell me your similar experiences. I need to be reassured that this will pass and that others have been here before and made it too.

[Kitkat :)]

I have bad anxiety too, and it runs in my family as well.
I often become detached from reality quite a lot, have you got any other symptoms?
I posted something like that on here (I wasn't on antibiotics before) and I got recommended to the dissociative identity thread, but that was because I also split into my others.

[roiben]

As your anxiety is so bad right now, I have a feeling the sense of being detatched is your minds way of trying to deal with the over-load of anxiety.

Detatchment, sometimes called dissociation (from reality or the self) can be a coping mechanism when things get too much. I often get this when my anxiety or depression are spiralling.

I would suggest letting someone near you know how you are feeling. My boyfriend is very good at grounding me and calming me down and sometimes it is good to have someone that can spot when to do that. Also, try some grounding techniques and meditation to help bring yourself back from the panic and re-find reality.

I would suggest going to the Drs, as any reaction to medication should be noted. It may be that the steroid you are on it not suitable and there is an alternative. However, if you find you do not wish to change it is best to remember that this is a temporary situation, that you can not die from a panic attack and find the best ways to keep yourself safe in the mean time.

*hugs*
Roiben x