Triggering (SI/Suicide) - scared, confused, idk.......

scarred_fairy · 05-04-2010, 11:28 PM

idk what to do or think anymore i wana cut badly wana bleed wana end this life so tired of the fighting and the stupidity of everyone around me.... dont wana be alone anymore cant do this..... should be going to see my councillor tomorrrow but she can't see me this week so scared of what i'll do...... idk confused...sorry making no sense.....

Cazki · 05-04-2010, 11:29 PM

I'm sorry your feeling this way. Are you able to talk some more about whats making you feeling way? Whats making you want to end your life? I hear you about not being able to see your counsellor as she cant make it, but perhaps you could phone her up and talk to her about how you feel? Please dont do anything bad or end your life, i know its tough but you can get through this and we are all here for you. Things wont be like this forever. Have you tried distracting yourself? Dont give up. Keep safe.

Take care best wishes Ian

-Shae-Lynn* · 05-04-2010, 11:42 PM

You are making sense. You are saying that you are in pain and that you need help. That is nothing to be ashamed of, everyone needs help at some point or another. I agree with Monsoon. Call her and tell her the truth about how you feel. Maybe you can make an appointment to see her later in the week. If you tell her how you are feeling maybe she'll be able to squeeze you in.
No matter how dark things are right now, the sun will shine again. You'll get through this. You'll be healthy and you'l be happy. You just need to push through the bad stuff for a little while longer. You've made it this far. Don't give up!

PM me if you ever want or need

scarred_fairy · 05-04-2010, 11:51 PM

thanks u guys for replying. my councillor isnt working this week for some reason idk so she wont be able to see me so i just have to wait a whole other week until i see her and im scared that when i go back she is going to stop seeing me everyweek and just want to see me every two weeks i cant do that i wont be able to survive she is my only outlet nobody else listens or understands. ive had such a bad easter my mam went crazy last night and my dad said he would be better off dead and now im so frightened he'll do something i cant live without my dad i just cant if anything happens idk what i'll do...... so hopeless atm just want someone to make it go away...
thanks again guys!

madhatterlovezyou · 05-04-2010, 11:54 PM

aww honey. I'm feeling exactly like you right now so i know exactly how you feel. please hold on. it's hard but just think of what you've got to lose if the world loses you. take care. and pm me if you wanna talk.

crazykat · 06-04-2010, 05:36 AM

Can you tell your counselor your fears? That you feel that you need to see her every week. It's tough living with parents that are unstable too, I went through that when I lived at home so if you ever need anything feel free to PM me. Take care
Kat xxx