Just got out of hospital and need support.

quiet1 · 05-04-2010, 11:20 PM

i was in for 2 weeks after i had stopped eating and was cutting everyday. i must have told the therapist at my outpatient program that i was suicidal....and she called the freakin ambulance and off i went to the hospital. i was so pissed off at the time but i am so grateful now. they helped me so much at the hospital. anyways...i am having trouble readjusting to life at home. i crave the structure that they set up for me there but i can't re-create it at home.

not sure what i need from this post except that someone out there understands me and knows how hard it is to transition back home. did anything help you get back to a normal routine?

thanks.
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fuzzy_sweets · 05-04-2010, 11:22 PM

quiet1 could you get yourself into a similar routine at home to the one you had at hospital?

one_step_closer · 06-04-2010, 12:57 PM

Giving yourself time and creating your own routine can help. Make sure that you have lots of support around you too. We are all here for you. Take care.

06-04-2010, 05:36 PM

it can be hard to have all the responsibilities of life thrown at you when you leave the hospital. do you have good mental health support to help you adjust back? I'm glad the hospital helped you, and you really will get through this. I agree you could create your own structure, like maybe set times to eat, etc.

quiet1 · 06-04-2010, 11:29 PM

i have a structure and support folder that i should look at to help. i am enrolled in the after-care program that i was in before the hospital. intensive outpatient. we meet everyday. its kinda like a partial hospitalization. i can get most of my structure there and my boyfriend and I go over my daily plan every night. he has been so supportive throughout this whole ordeal. he is awesome!

the part that feels surreal is like the everyday stuff like traffic and people talking all at once and having free time to do stuff where i would otherwise be hurting myself. i don't want to hurt myself and i don't feel the need to and that is AMAZING. first time in my life. the wonder drug anafranil has taken away the constant obsession. its like a weight has been lifted off of me.

i am terrified to go back to work, even though i haven't been cleared to return yet. i know it's coming and i am dreading it already.