Hi my friend and I are both ill and one of the things we both seem to have is an intense obsessional pattern. I'm not talking about OCD (although we both have it), I'm talking about being so obsessed with someone, or something that it consumes you.
A while ago I used to be so obsessed with Kate Beckinsale, (I have almost all of her films) and I would sit when I was depressed, and watch all the movies back to back. It's kind of like not being in love with her, it's more that I want to BE her. Not LIKE her, BE HER. It's so intense that we have both agreed it is ruining us yet I don't know about her, but I can't help it.
I have fallen into an obsession with Michelle Pfeiffer at the moment.
I'm just curious if anyone has this kind of instable pattern or if anyone knows what causes this? Thanks.
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
i develop all consuming obsessions with people but people that are in my actual life and i spend time with. not famous people like this. i can definitely relate to how it takes over all your thoughts and such.
personally i've been advised to try and introduce other things into my life so that this person doesn't have such a significant and unhealthy portion of everything. distractions and such are meant to help too.
Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want?
I have an obession with someone who is partially famous, well famous in his right, and well I am a compulsive liar, and in the past I have lied to people about being in a relationsup/marriage to this individual....
I know its wrong, I know its not real - but the lie seems to comfort me, I am trying to bring this issue up with my cpn, as I know its important and I need to start adressing things like this which are really wrong, this lie goes on and I think I am only lying to one person on my msn about it, but its wrong and I get fully taken in by my own lies, I know its wrong but at the same time, I wish it was right - do you get what I am saying?
Sorry, I am rambling.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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I heart, I also develop obsessions with real life people too - Like I became so obsessed with my tutor at one point that I would try and spend all my free time with her whilst we were at school.
Stell, I don't think its personality traits, it literally is a case of I want to be her. But then on the other hand it's almost a bit like love :S I dunno. I'm not gay. Well I don't really know so it's not a crush really.
EDIT: I should add that for about 3 days when I was obsessed with Kate Beckinsale, I wasn't there. I was like losing time and not really feeling alive or me. It's hard to explain but as I got 'lost' in her films, I began to just not exist.
Last edited by MrsCoulter : 04-04-2010 at 02:16 PM.
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"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
sometimes i get obsessed with people, sometimes those in my life but mostly celebrities. when i was 11 i became completely obsessed with lady sovereign, as you put it i wanted to 'be' her, that faded after about 6 months but was replaced by Matt Bellamy, though i think that may be more of a crush. I don't really know what these 'obsessions' mean, i've never been to a psychiatrist or been diagnosed with any disorder although i haven't ever told anyone about them.
sorry for rambling
Last edited by Cally : 06-04-2010 at 03:07 PM.
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As I said hun, you should go and discuss your concerns with your gp.
I am worried about my so called obsessions, I mean the part of me that is a compulsive liar stems from this, its because I cant accept my own shitty reality, I feel the need to create my own, more interesting and fulfilling lifes. Whether this is pretending im with people or not, its not right - my reality sucks and at the moment, I am trying to tell my cpn and stuff about these issues, its hard to discuss though as I am so ashamed of lies that I have told, and realities I have believed.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Hi Hollz, sorry you're having a hard time telling your CPN :(
I have told my gp, she didn't seem all that interested. I also told my primary care person at the mental health clinic about it and she was like 'meh it's OCD'. Hoping to write it all down and then won't have to say anything :)
"John, being brave is going where no man has gone before and with Lizzy Stark, that is NOT what you'll be doing!" - Aunt Polly.
“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
I wrote out a lot to my CPN a few weeks ago, we haven't touched on it yet as she was on annual leave and other things had been going on with me, so she did read it though and has said that she thinks I will benefit from pyscotherapy as additional support. I am so ashamed of the lies I have told, I still to some people - I know its wrong, but I feel comfort in believing my fake reality.
Reality for me is well I hadn't been in a relationship since I was about 18, well that was until last week but even the relationship I am now in (and I am 24) well its at a slow pace and you know, going to take things slow but I don't if its right for me, but I feel I need to try.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
