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Triggering (Suicide) - Struggle
I keep reaching this point where I don't wantt to be alive, and can't be bothered to live anymore. My mood is fluctuating at extremities and slowly it's killing me. I am considering rehoming two of my mice because my mum wants me to get rid of them and I feel like I haven't given this particular pair my full attention and thus they have become quite skittish and need to be retrained if you like, to welcome human interaction and I just don't have the energy or the time to do that. I feel incredibly trapped. I have a 16 mice; some of who I love, some I don't, I have 4 rats, all of whom I love, and a rabbit I got a month ago who I love. But the thing is I have to be here for them and look after them and care for them, because no one else would but right now I don't want to be here, I kind of feel like finding new homes for my animals so I can finally just lay down and die.
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