Too little too late??

[Merc]

Finally, I have been offered counselling thru my psych hospital's out-patient department. It was a 3 month wait...and she has called this week.
I dont know what to do...
I dont honestly think i need it now.
Im working.
Im not harming.
drinking is under control.
So...what the hell is there to talk about ?!?
Yes, there are 'bad thoughts', but only occasionally now, usually easily banished (albeit with night meds, but...who cares, right? It works).
I dont take anything in the day anymore, only my AD.
Yes, issues with eating throws me a curve every now and then, but I get out of it after a bit.
Black thoughts...same.
So..why??
I dont want to waste their time; I know how many ppl are waiting so desperately for this he;lp...so why should i take it???
/dunno what to decide...ideas??


little fear thast maybe going over/thru it all will set me back
i CANT go back there
i wont make it out again

[jonikd]

Awww Romp, its a tough one I know. I don't know how old you are or your situation, but I am OLD and just launching back into psychotherapy etc as old coping mechanisms such as SI have raised their head after many years' break.

I know that having therapy does stir everything up, but if it gives you some longterm benefit and relief then just maybe its worth it?

I'm giving it a go, and as I know I'll be triggered when I do see my therapist I am putting in place some support around those times.

Your call at the end of the day, but I guess if you're still having those thoughts and having to work at suppressing them then you should give it a shot, and if it really makes things worse then you can stop it.

Just make sure your decision is based on what's good for you rather than "do I deserve it with so many others waiting" cos that would be the wrong reason OK? You deserve care just as much as anyone in the planet. If not more given you've had to wait 3 months /

Take care,

JK

[Stellata]

What do you really need to help maintain wellness and stability long term, do you think?

[~Grace~]

I say go for it Romp..you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
I think its better to try something and then stop if it doesnt suit or help you rather than not trying at all.

I really hope it helps you xx

[CagedBird]

It sounds like a good time to start therapy. You could always start it, give it a go and then decide later. I definately wouldn't shut any doors just yet, you've been waiting long enough! It is great you're feeling better and more in control, so maybe you could use the time to build on that and get some more support methods/coping skills in place for times when you may get worse (just in case etc). I would take anything that is offered, i definately understand the fear of going back to the pain, but this shouldn't happen with a good counsellor. You could discuss this with her at the initial session.

[Merc]

Thank you for the replies. I think I should try it. I had been offered this support a few years ago, but it didnt work out to well. I just wasnt in the right place to do it.
A good idea to talk to her about how I'm feeling, re: the fear of it making me worse.
Thx again.

[irkeninvader]

I think it's a good idea to tell them how you're feeling about it, as they will be able to help and make sure that your fears of it making things worse are taken into consideration during the support. I'm glad they are finally giving you some support hun, I hope it all works out well for you

[Merc]

Thx.
I have to ctc the woman I originally met with, because she says, it has been awhile'.
I will call her this week, not sure when I can actually see her tho...the days she is in, I'm working till at least 6. Maybe a phone call will do.

[jonikd]

Make the calll Romp, even if just to organise a time when you can make it. Well done hun, and never doubt that you deserve this help xx