Get me out of my mind

DarkAtHeart · 01-04-2010, 01:48 PM

Ever since i can remember i've always been depressed,paranoid and have social anxiety, but lately the paranoia has been escalating something dramatic. I'll be walking through my work, down the street or even i my backyard andi can hear people imitating these "noises" i make and laugh hysterically at me and it brings me down so much, i ask everyone that i can trust if i make weird noises like or do anything weird and they all look at me dumb founded. I'm no expert but i don't think its possible to hear what yu want to hear over what they're saying, is it? And because of this it isn't helping my depression, some days i wake up so tired it's a miracle i even have a smile on my face, im just not sure what to do or who to turn to :( it feels like i can trust no-one at all, and those i can trust just sugar coat it

But on the more positive side i manage to hold my own job, full-time, pays great, i bought my own first car, only 7 years old and im 19 going 20 this year, i do have quiet a few friends but i don't hang out with them much more, i do gym, spend quality time with family, i've had girlfriends before but i usually break it off with them and i still have enough money in the bank to put a decent deposit on a house.

But in the end life is just miserable for me and i hate living like this, if i go see a doctor i feel they just put it on and bare with me, like everyone else, can anyone help?

Rhuben · 01-04-2010, 03:12 PM

First of all welcome to the forums.

For how long has this paranoia been escalating? Do you remember when you first noticed that people were copying and laughing at you? I guess what I'm asking is was it a gradual thing that built up over time or was it like someone flipped a switched whilst you were asleep and it's occurred ever since then?

It's not nice experiencing those things and certainly can't be good for your confidence or self assurance. Perhaps you could ask a friend to go with you next time you're outside to see if they notice people copying you?

It's good that you're holding down a job and doing well in those respects, but it can't be nice feeling depressed and paranoid so often. Maybe go back the doctors or try a new one? Explain the recent developments that you hear people copying you and take in what they have to say about it.