I am a cutter. Of course. I cannot control myself anymore. I wanna cut and cut and cut and cut. I long seeing what I did to myself, I like the feeling, I like needing something. I want to do it more and more. In fact.. I am thinking of doing it, right now. I have been more and more depressed every day this week, and I am at a breaking point!
Hey,
i'm a cutter too. it really sucks feeling like you need it but i'll tell you something...you don't need it. Think of the awful feelings after you cut. If you cut too deep, the frightening *o my gosh what am i going to do, why won't it stop*, or the *i hate my self i've let everyone down again they are going to be so upset*, it isn't worth it. You can make it through this urge. Try going for a run/walk or exercise, go to the distractions page, turn your music up loud and focus as much as possible on the world...is there anyone that you want to stop for think of them and how much they care about you. of try writing everything down, mush it into a paper ball and chuck it at a wall as hard as you can. make tea/hot chocolate, eat chocolate or some other comfort food? i'm just throwing out ideas that have helped me before. pm me anytime *HUGS*
I can fly, I can fly among the clouds
All I need are a pair of wings,
outside help, and a little faith
You are valuable, don't let anyone tell you differently.
Love Gives Me Hope
Could you take a nice warm bath? That helps me sometimes too...sometimes i fall asleep...just make sure things are hidden and too far away to get to.
I can fly, I can fly among the clouds
All I need are a pair of wings,
outside help, and a little faith
You are valuable, don't let anyone tell you differently.
Love Gives Me Hope
I know what you mean and I know it's hard but please dont give up! Don't let it win! Find something to distract yourself with music usually works for me, or talk to a friend, there is an amazing support network right here. You can always PM me if you need to. If you do end up cutting then do it safely. I know it can be hard to control but if you beat it once you can again that first step is the hardest though. There's a brighter future somewhere we just can't see it yet. I hope you feel better soon x
What the others have said, the fact that you really do not need to do anything to yourself that hurts you, is so true. What could you have done so bad that makes you deserve this? I really don't think there is an answer, but maybe you will come up with something. If you want to cut and continue cutting it might be worth getting some external help such as visiting a GP or confiding in a parent/friend. I realise that this is very difficult but sometimes, it is these things that can push us in the right direction.
