I need a supportive boost and some encouragement please

Stellata · 30-03-2010, 07:44 AM

I have bad PMS, and I feel somewhat low and vulnerable and in pain. I am working at bearing with the feelings. But it's sometimes, like now, a challenge to believe that love and compassion for myself, and from others, is stronger than the bleak loneliness and pain. I feel so sad. And I'm scared. I had a hopeful dream last night, but it even feels that that doesn't boost my mood. And I'm so tired.

tamobhuuta · 30-03-2010, 08:24 AM

hi Katei, keep remembering that you deserve to treat yourself well and to be treated well by others. the PMS will pass eventually (but don't i know how horrible it can be!) and you will get through this. you know that, i know, but it can be hard to hold on to. xxx

Pierrot · 30-03-2010, 08:38 AM

Well...I can't comment on the PMS, so I'll stay out of that if it's okay with you. ;)

But you should be encouraged. You do so much to help others here on this site, I can only imagine how generous your heart is in person, and how much love you have cultivated. *hugs* Take heart: this is temporary, and you're strong enough to get through it.

one_step_closer · 30-03-2010, 12:58 PM

I'm here if you need me Katie. *hugs*

crazykat · 30-03-2010, 01:03 PM

Hold on there hun, you will get through this. I am here if I can help in anyway *hugs*

Gone. · 30-03-2010, 01:09 PM

Katie, keep fighting through this. As others have said, you do a lot around this site and do not deserve to feel the way you do. Keep talking and look after yourself x

The Hierophant · 30-03-2010, 03:45 PM

try to be gentle with yourself, you said it's pms, so you know it should pass soon, i wish i had something more helpful to say, especially as you've been so supportive of me recently, thinking of you though & i hope you feel better soon.

hugs if you want them.

Stellata · 30-03-2010, 06:11 PM

Thanks everyone. It feels a little less raw this evening, work helped, and posting here, being less alone with it.

I'm so so tired, and I fell over coming out of work earlier, and feel sore and bruised. I know that when my period comes, there will be some release of pressure.

Becca · 30-03-2010, 07:34 PM

**hugs** Hopeful dreams are good.

Stellata · 30-03-2010, 08:16 PM

Thank you. :)

All your words do help ease the loneliness. I can get into a very 'cut off' state just before my period. Always have done. Am trying to consciously ease from it slowly.

My breasts hurt, my abdomen hurts, my hip hurts, and my hand hurts - my elbow hurts too. I kind of hurt all over. But at least my mind is a little soothed.

crazykat · 31-03-2010, 12:57 PM

Would having a warm bath help soothe the pain a bit? Or even having a hot water bottle. Hold on hun, you will get through this. Take care
Kat xxx

roiben · 31-03-2010, 01:41 PM

*offers Katie a Plushie hot water bottle bear and hugs*

I am also very sensitive, physically and emotionally around PMS time. Have you considered contraceptives as an option to ease the effect a little?

Thinking of you, hun & wishing there was more I could do. Try to take things easy for a little bit and it should pass soon enough.

Roiben x

Stellata · 31-03-2010, 04:07 PM

Thanks. :)

Roiben, I wouldn't go near hormonal treatment for my own personal ethical reasons. It's a LOT better than it used to be. Just, being more conscious, brings, well, more consciousness and awareness to the feelings....

No period yet, but I've put some arnica cream on my hip.

After tomorrow's session, the Easter therapy break starts. I'm starting to feel a little stronger about approaching it. But that's adding to my vulnerability right now.

I barely slept last night. I hope tonight will be better.

sherlock holmes · 31-03-2010, 05:37 PM

Sorry to hear you didnt sleep well.

Do you do things like have a bath with lavendar oil to unwind?

Stellata · 31-03-2010, 05:53 PM

Geranium and Frankincense are my favourites. :)

Unfortunately baths are out while my flatmates are around. Might be able to catch at least one bath over the weekend.

I feel contentedly sleepy, but I ache so much - physically and emotionally.

crazykat · 01-04-2010, 04:29 AM

*Hugs* I hope you manage to get a good nights sleep

Stellata · 01-04-2010, 07:12 AM

I slept ok, and this morning I got my period. Which means the PMS phase will ease off, and I'll have other hormonal stuff stirrings. Then hopefully that side of things will settle.

The Hierophant · 01-04-2010, 10:43 AM

At least there's a light at the end of the tunnel for a short while?
I don't know if that helps or not.. i'm sorry.

Steel Maiden · 01-04-2010, 12:07 PM

Big hugs Katie. I hope things get better for you.

crazykat · 01-04-2010, 12:58 PM

*Hugs* I hope you feel a bit better soon, thinking of you