Hi guys,
This im my first post here. I'm probably not your usual poster. I've been free of SI for pretty much 7 years (minus a couple of slip ups earlier on!), and just wanted to share that as inspiration to everyone. I am HAPPY. Something I never really thought I could be.
It was such a struggle at first. I messed up over and over, and tried to do it on my own. I think it was due to luck that eventually it stuck. I found some little SI free for x days/weeks/months printable badge things. In the end, it was not wanting to 'ruin' my 3 month status and have to start all over again with 1 day that finally swung it for me.
Yeah, I messed up again a little when I started uni. But I forgave myself and just started over the next day.
I'm still aware of it, but it's my past. I've been with my boyfriend for the last 4 years and he doesn't know. I'm not sure what it would achieve by telling him. I feel practically a different person these days.
I am getting towards the end of training to become a doctor now. It's tough, but I've found other ways to blow off steam - whether going out for a meal with mates, or just having a nice bath. YOU CAN DO IT. You can achieve anything. You do not need SI to be you.
I know how tough it is. I also know that you can get through this. I made a 'happy kit' - with a CD of happy, non triggering songs, some bubble bath, a choc bar, a magazine, some nail polish... nice stuff that made me feel better. I let myself relax in a safe space with my kit. Minutes became hourse, which became days, which became weeks.....now I'm thinking in terms of years.
Good luck to all,
IzziBelle
hey
i think you are fantastic!!!
7 years is amazing!!
this is a really positive thread, and its insperied me now, i can turn my 3 years into more!
xxxxx
My hero wears Combat boots and Camos!
I love that boy!! xxxxx
People walk in and out of our lives everyday, But those special people leave footprints in our hearts and minds.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Life is about love, last minutes and lost evenings,
About fire in our bellies and furtive little feelings,
And the aching amplitudes that set our needles all a-flickering,
And help us with remembering that the only thing that's left to do is live.
