Triggering (SI) - i dont want to be alone.

borntobleed · 19-03-2010, 04:51 PM

hey guys. im sorry to be posting but i really need some nice people in my life. i have been s/h everyday since my best member staff was moved out of the childerns home because we got 'to close' basically we would spend all the time together and she would help me through my bpd. the hardest part is i put this person on a pedestal and i ****ed up and its been taken away. i carved her name into my awm and im embaressed to ware short sleeves anymore. my arms are a mess and i dont mind that but because of the home i am in i cant walk around with my carers name on my are can i? i know this is all a bit stupid but i dont know what to do anymore.

Fry · 19-03-2010, 05:15 PM

Post this in Self Harm Discussion should be your first step I think.

Foxeh · 19-03-2010, 06:03 PM

Sorry you're finding things hard right now, hun.
As already mentioned, I think you'd find it helpful to post this in SH discussion so you can get appropriate support =]

Do you want to chat about anything in here?

Tig · 19-03-2010, 09:47 PM

It isn't stupid, it sounds like something that is very distressing for you.

I'm sorry to hear about the situation with the member of staff. It does sound like you were very close and it must be difficult for you that suddenly she is gone, even if it is with the best intentions for you both. Do you feel able to talk to any other member of staff about how you feel? They might not be able to bring her back but they can help you with your feelings and thoughts.

x

borntobleed · 20-03-2010, 05:23 PM

i dont want to talk to any of the staff. i just want my mate back. i cant tell any of them how i am feeling . i dont know what to do anymore. im sorry i no i sound opathetic. but shes the only one who know what i was going through and was prepaired to help me no one else will work that hard with me. i dont know what to do