Being attacked by my mum

[englishrose]

Yesterday i returned home to my clean jeans with my muddy shoes on top which my mum had put there i was so upset i asked her why she had done that and she sore red she came flying in and put her hands round my neck i pulled her hands off and pushed her out of the kitchen she then grabbed me and shoved me to the wall causing the damage you can see in the picture and really hurting me it was that hard. then she continued to shout at me and be in my face i didn't fight back i just keep holding her arms whenever she went to hit or put her hand near me.

All of this because my room is a right mess.
I’m 21 at uni and very busy what does she expect ok be angry but to assault me like that was so wrong.

I'm so upset and if I’m honest i really fell like self-harming even though I probs have not self-harmed in like what 9 months.

I now feel like i want to move out she has lost all my respect for her now but working out money i don’t know if i can afford it.

oh yeh and the hole time she attacked me her boyfriend sat there watching!!!

Oh help I hate this constant feeling of being sick and uneasy and wanting to self-harm!!!!!!!!!

[PoisonedApple]

Is there any rent assistance programs near you? Or maybe get a 2 bedroom with someone you know and split the rent?
*huggles*
I'm sorry I don't have any other ideas for you right now... Maybe a counselor at your uni'd know something you can do to move out and be able to afford it...? Really your mother had no right to do that to you. Have you seen a doctor to make sure you're just achy not actually injured?

[englishrose]

hey,

thank u for replying see i dont know i will have to keep looking for places to rent i just have to get out of here i have to look in to everything!

No im fine physicaly really but a little brused im just so emotional empty its untrue i dont have anymore to give i could sleep for a week really!

But what upsets me even more i know she doesn't even feel bad for what she did i could never would never do that to my child no matter what they did, im still in shock that she would go that fare and do that to me really.

I have this feeling why does this have to happen just when things are looking good!!!

[Jetforce]

*hugs* definitely not cool by ur mom!

But yah, do u have a case manager or somebody that u can talk too? From there, i guess u could try and organise a place where u can move out? U could also try uni accomodation, if they ain't full (guessing they are tho, coz uni probably have started). Hope that helps a tad? Take care there

[pea soup]

first off, im so very sorry about what happened to you. im also no stranger to it myself. i understand the emptyness. the people who are "supposed" to love us the most sometimes hurt us the most making it very confusing.

please dont believe any of that was your fault. she had no right to put her hands on you. you sound like you have enough to keep yourself busy and for her to add stress to that down right makes me angry.

im also sorry that you have to carry the weight of finding another place to live. could you possibly stay with friends until you can find a place, or find low-income housing for a while?

or if your university has dormitories, maybe you could look into living there.

im sorry i dont have anything else.
thinking of you.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Mandimoo]

most uni's have dorms for the first years, after that you move into student houses - privately rented shared houses where you pay for a room and share facilities. these houses will be based around your uni coz they're usually within walking distance to lectures.

try this website: http://www.homesforstudents.co.uk/

[englishrose]

Thank you everyone im still looking for a place uni halls are out of the question because there full and is a waiting list! im trying to just keep out of the way of my mum home life is wonderful no but im coping somehow thank you for your support luv jad