Triggering (Suicide) - Not sure what to call this

[confused.com]

I'm not sure how to explain this as I'm not great with words as some of you may know, but here goes:

I just feel that I'm sick of trying to fight these ongoing battles in my head, I feel like I have found myself increasingly thinking about how much easier it would be for me to just crawl away into a corner and die.
I cry myself to sleep at night and wish and pray that I just wont waken up in the morning.
I know I have an amazing group of friends and at the moment they are the only people keeping me going. That said I still feel that things would be easier for everyone if I just wasnt here anymore.
I feel that cutting myself just isnt giving me that same feeling anymore, it just seems like its not enough for me anymore, hence why I think I should just dissappear.
Sometimes I can feel myself getting increasingly hyper and then at other times I feel really low and suicidal. I just dont know what to do for the best.

I know this has come out a bit jumbled and muddled, but this is just how my head is, I feel like sometimes I can totally think straight and stuff then the next time my head feels like its going to burst.

Thank you for anyone who reads this x

[matt1904]

confused.com, you know how I think.. you're not alone.. I'll help you as much as I can..

You need the doc back on the case, maybe on some meds again, and hopefully you will see an improvement, you seemed better before the doc stopped the meds.

You where I am, if u need me, day or night, just let me know.
Love and hugs
xoxoxo

[RadioActiveCheezPuff]

I just want to say that I really don't think the world would be better with out you. I know if I lost any of my friends, close or not I'd be hurt and have a heck of a time getting over it. It's hard to keep going, but please do. I'm so sorry you're having trouble. I really hope things get better *hugs*

[Katiee]

I'm sorry you have a lot going on at the moment, sweetie.
Are you getting any support? Maybe ring a helpline, talk through everything it might help you a little to get things straight? I know everything can get really confusing. We're all here for you if you need anything. <33

[xlaurenx]

Awww hun am so sorry your feeling so bad, hugs
Please dont give up , your worth so much to me and to matt.
You have helped me so much last year, am not just saying this, if it was not for you i probalby would have died atleast once.

I know you feel you cant do this or beat this but i know you cant no matter how much you say you cant, its being a struggle for the last 3-4 years for you and i know this yet the fact your still here shows alot of strength!

I love you sooo much hunn. please dont give up Claire.
Love you, pm me whenever
laurenxx