Struggling...

justmeuk · 15-03-2010, 04:43 AM

hey all,

just wanted some advice really. life is really not good at the moment, my SH is really bad at the moment, well bad for me anyway and im suffering with panic attacks.

i have this constant sick feeling and am i a state of panic pretty much 24/7. i cried so much the other week that i was sick and now this has become a new issue which is worrying me. Everytime im filled with this panic (which is often) im throwing up...im not making myself sick my body just automatically wants to throw up.

i live on my own and am 23, no one knows about any of my problems and so far ive managed to keep it a secret. but things in my life are particularly bad right now and i think my depression is really bad now. im struggling to hold down my job and im not sure what to do.

do you guys think i shud start to get some help by going to the doctors or do you think i shud tell my mum? i am suicidal at the moment as well, and i feel like im on course for a massive breakdown when all these problems that ive worked so hard to keep a secret will all come out.

im also not sure that i can keep going to work, i feel like i need some time out. also just to add some more issues to my problem, im also in the process of applying to medical school and im worried that if i go to the doctors that i will have to disclose all of this which will inevitable affect my chances. i was thinkin maybe i could just tell my mum/doc about the depression and say im not coping and maybe try n keep the SH a secret?

sorry this is a bit long, just wondered what you guys thought i shud do?

xxx

Sigma · 15-03-2010, 08:05 AM

It sounds like you need support - would you find it easier to tell your Mum or the Dr? Probably you need some professional support, but if it's easier to tell your Mum then start there...

I wouldn't worry too much about medical school at the moment, you need to get better first. I'm not too sure about their regualtions but from what other people here have said I think they're more concerned about you being able to cope with the course. If it's a current problem then it would be better to get it sorted before starting an intense and quite stressful set of studies. Better to delay if you need to and finish successfully than rush it and have to drop out...

justmeuk · 15-03-2010, 02:51 PM

hey thanks for the reply. It would be easier for me to tell anyone else except my mum. what worries me most is her finding out.

I just feel like i dont know what a dr would do for me. its not like they can change all the things in my life that make me feel this way and until those things dissapear i just dont know how this is all going to go away.

and your probably right about medical school, i just dont wanna dissapoint my family x