Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Get out of MY head

[~*Dare to Dream*~]

None of this should have happened. I don't deserve it. Yes **** happened before - It DOES NOT give you the right to do that when i was passed out, asleep. It DOESNT GIVE YOU THE ****ING RIGHT TO DO THAT.

I've suffered enough.

I have lost my confidence.
I have lost my ability to trust people.
I have lost one of my jobs.
I have lost my boyfriend.
I have lost more blood.
I have lost my self respect.
I have lost my dignity.

You chose your actions.
I COULDNT.

You chose to do the worst thing possible to my body.
TO me.

It feels like I have lost everything.
But I AM not going to let you win.

****.
Its hard getting out of bed in the morning - Because of you.
The damage that I want to cause to me - MY BODY - is because of you.

Im not going to let you win.
Im not going to let you take everything I LOVE away from me.
I am not going to let you take my life away from me.

****. YOU ****ER. YOU BASTARD.
You are always going to be part of my life.
In a BAD WAY.
You ****ER.
YOU HAD NO RIGHT.
I HATE you.

I want you out of my thoughts, I want you out of my mind.
I want you to stop controlling my life.
I don't want you near me.
GET OUT OF MY ****ING HEAD.

[irkeninvader]

I don't have many words right now but I wanted to post so you know there's someone here to listen if you want to talk or rant or whatever will help

[Mandimoo]

save this somewhere prominent on your desktop for when you feel low or in doubt. this is a strong post, and you are a strong woman. dont let the prick bring you down. xxx