Triggering (SI) - Help?

Patch. · 12-03-2010, 11:59 PM

Hi

I've been trying to stop cutting for a while now, and I hate to admit it's not going too well lately.

I always get really bad urges at night. During the day I seem to be okay, I don't really get bad urges. The problem is with these urges, I find them VERY hard to control, and end up giving in.

I had a really rough night last night which involved me crying, trying not to cut, punching a pillow, then frantically trying to find my tools.

I'm having urges again tonight, and it's getting so tiering fighting this constantly. I feel like giving up right now.

The frustrateing thing is I don't know what's brought these urges on. I know that my mood crashed last night which left me really tearful and frustrated and left me in the negative thinking cycle again.

Can someone please give me some advice on how to get through this should it happen again? It's really scary, and it was late at night, so my distractions were very limited. What can I do?

Sorry this is so long, thanks for reading

xx

chickenpie · 13-03-2010, 12:03 AM

>*HUGS*<

Don't know what to say hun I'm struggling big time too, but just wanted to remind you you are NOT alone with this.

Keep strong

Gemx x

irkeninvader · 13-03-2010, 12:29 AM

I don't have many words tonight but I wanted to say that I've read your post and I understand how hard it is *hugs*

Patch. · 13-03-2010, 12:41 AM

Thanks both of you for the replies *hugs back*

xx

Sorry to hear you're struggling chickenpie *huggles*

Cazki · 13-03-2010, 01:26 AM

*Hugs* Sorry your struggling. Dont give up, i know its hard but you can do this, you managed to get through last time and you can do it again. I know its very tiring but stay strong. Do you have an ipod or mp3 player at all? If you do you could try listening to music to help with the urges or if you have a a table lamp maybe you could read for a while, i dont know what else to suggest. Do you have any support? If not perhaps you could consider getting extra support? Stay safe.

Take care best wishes Ian

Patch. · 13-03-2010, 01:51 AM

Monsoon: Thank you so much for your suggestions, and for taking the time to reply. I'll try my ipod, thank you!!

About support - my family don't know so it's hard to get support at night :/

Thanks again,
x

Amaryllis · 13-03-2010, 02:18 AM

Have you tried e-mailing the supporters or doing things off of the Big Distraction List?

When I have found the nights hard, one of the things I've done is go to bed earlier, coupled with a fairly intense workout. The exercise gives you happy endorphins and wears you out so your body is READY to go to bed earlier.

Alternately, you could make sure you're really busy when you know you're going to be struggling. Baking, writings, and crafting have all worked for me and they might be something to look into for yourself.

Have you thought about what is causing these intense urges?