Triggering (SI) - giving up....

scarred_fairy · 12-03-2010, 12:05 AM

dont know what to do anymore everything is so wrong i dont want to be here i want no i need it to end it all.....nobody cares honestly nobody does everyone uses me when they need to and then just f**k off and ignore me i cant take the pain anymore just cannot do it.... i got into the college i wanted and of course nobody gives a sh*t they just find something else to moan about or make me feel sh*t about...... ugh i dont even care anymore.........i dont want to live anymore its too hard trying to stop trying to get better is too hard i cant fight much longer.......

Buttons. · 12-03-2010, 05:43 AM

Hi there,
I'm sorry to hear that you feeling badly enough to be considering suicide, that is a very lonely and distressing place to be. However it is worth looking at other ways to solve your problems, as I am pretty sure it is this situation and these feelings you want out of, rather than life itself.

It sounds as though you feel very lonely and isolated. What evidence do you have that people don't care? It also sounds as though you feel under a lot of pressure from people, even when you succeed. Have you talked to anyone about that?

Cazki · 12-03-2010, 04:15 PM

I'm sorry your having such a tough time. What is it that make you feel no one cares? Are there other things going on that are making you feel this way or is it just that you feel no one cares about you? Can you talk to us some more about whats making you feel this way? Do you have any support? Have you spoken to these people to explain how you feel? Please dont give up and please dont end your life. Suicide isnt the answer, you can get through this. I care about you and so do lots of other people here at ryl. Please stay safe. I'm here for you.

Take care best wishes Ian

scarred_fairy · 13-03-2010, 07:17 PM

thanks for the replies you guys! everything is just a bit **** at the moment and im not dealing too well! i do have a councillor but i dont see her til tuesday and i wont see her the week after cos ive to work as my mam prefers me to work then get help. i dont have any support other then my councillor and here as no one really cares that i si or whatever so its just really lonely. im not making much sense but thanks anyway.

Katiee · 13-03-2010, 11:07 PM

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so awful at the moment. Things must be extremely difficult.
Is there anyone you could talk to about how bad you're feeling? If not, would you consider ringing a helpline? Prehaps Samaritans? even e-mailing them if you felt you couldn't talk on the phone? There is support out there for you, hun. Please hang on in there - you can get through this. xo.