Triggering (Suicide) - why. need help. (trig also SI)

nopoint · 11-03-2010, 08:18 AM

i dont know if this is the right thing to post here. im sorry if it isnt. im new here.

why should i bother. everybody in life just knocks me down no matter what happens. i feel like i can trust nobody. nobody at all. im all alone. i feel numb, lonely, empty, sad, scarred, hurt, lost, and done. i dont know how to deal with this. i have been cutting, scratching, biting, and countless other things for a while. and its getting impossible to hide. and i cant stop. ive tried. nothing works. and i feel like its the only thing keeping me going. im only 16. just turned 16 actually. my mom is emotionally and mentally and occasionally physically abusive. i hate myself. i hate who i am and what i look like. i cant look in the mirror. i dont eat. i cant take it. i have nobody to talk too. im all alone. and i dont know what to do. i need a reason to live. or to at least keep trying. im scared. and worried. and i cant think of anything right now except ending it all. help. please. i dont know what to do.

Defender Of The Faith · 11-03-2010, 11:19 AM

Hey, you're worth so much more than this. I'm sure you have plenty of people who care about you. I know for a fact that the people here care. Please keep going. I'm here if you need to talk, just pm me, yeh? Please hang on. Thing's will get better.
Take care
Kirsty
xx

Katiee · 11-03-2010, 06:05 PM

hey hunni,
I think you should really talk to someone who can support you at this difficult time - is there anyone? If not, prehaps ringing a helpline might be a good idea. Just getting everything out might ease the pressure.
If you want email addresses/telephone numbers/good website - feel free to PM me. You can get through this. As for the self-harming, try claming down and using distractions if you can. You're strong. <33

Too Shy · 12-03-2010, 04:47 AM

I agree with above - is there anyone who you can talk to at the moment? You sound like you're feeling very alone at the moment, and it would be good if there was someone who could be with you.

Try to use some distraction techniques when you feel like you need to self-harm, just for the short-term. And keep talking about what's going on, try not to keep everything bottled up.

It will be ok, things will get better. xx