Triggering (SI) - Help Me Please

BleedForever · 17-02-2010, 04:23 AM

Okay when I first started running a blade over my arm, not even breaking skin, helped me to stop after my first cut. But then I used the wrong part of this blade and broke skin and it bleed, alot.
So because I knew how I didn't stop myself from doing it every night but only 1 cut a night. Now its got to the point I cut every time the last marks have healed.
Because my body is now use to this its starting to heal faster. It use to take 9 days. And when I looked this morning, only 3 days after I cut, they were almost healed. I'm worried that when I wake up they be healed. And when there is no mark I cut.
I have a couple of slightly visable scars on my leg. My right wrist seems to have no marks but then again my right arm always heals quickly and with no mark. But I cut my left wrist and its starting to scar, alot. Not visable but if you run your hand over my wrist you feel them. If you look close enough you seem them.
I really need help because when I go back to school on monday I don't want to have to where a wrist band to cover these marks because people are starting to notice. Any advice I would love.

lilrenthefox · 17-02-2010, 08:43 AM

my only advice is if you HAVE to harm, do it somewhere less visible. i'm not condoning it but it's a coping mechanism and you'll stop when you're ready to. try popping a rubber band, it works

tamobhuuta · 17-02-2010, 10:09 PM

are you allowed to wear jewellery? if so, bracelets are a good way of covering marks. if not it's still cold enough that i doubt anyone's going to question if you're wearing long sleeves.
do you want to talk about why you've been cutting?
it's scary when SH starts getting worse, but it doesn't have to carry on like this.
feel free to PM me if you'd like to chat.