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Triggering (SI) - begging from the bottom drawer. But saying NO!
Tommorow will officially be one month and no SI for me :]
none at all! cutting, hitting, burning, nothing. im so ecstatic and proud of myself. this is kind of a mile stone!
but i wanted to share something as well.
After relying on SI for years i had forgotten how to cry, [has anyone else expierenced this,jw??] but anyways last weekend i was missing my mom tons (she died of cancer about two years ago) and i cried! i actually cried! it was amazing. i wept for my mom, i wept because ive destroyed my body with scars, etc. when i was done (finally) i felt cleansed, and proud that i had gotten through an emotional time without my razors. i had linked saddness with guilt, and after i was done crying, i actually felt better and NOT guilty.
I know that my razors will always be waiting and begging for me from my bottom drawer, but im getting stronger everyday at saying NO!! and you can too loves, your in my prayers. :]
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