Triggering (SI/ED) - So right now I just realised just how far I've come

[[LittleMonster]]

I was just looking at all my past threads,it actually shocked me what I used to feel and think
All the terrible threads about how I was od'ing, drinking, SH'ing all the time. This was just a year ago.
But currently I'm 10 and a half weeks SH free (and was only every few weeks before this), I never drink to drown my sorrows now and I haven't OD'ed for at least 6 months and have no intention to ever again.
I know my ED got worse over the year, but right now I actually look at these pictures of skinny girls and think differently, and I don't feel AS bad if I "overeat".I'm above my lowest weight by quite alot,
I was very depressed a year ago, saw psychiatrist, psychologist and was on meds
I no longer see either of them and no longer on medications, hardly ever have depressive moods, and when I do I'm able to get rid of it

I even threw away my last blade the other day!
I'm soooo happy with myself
A year ago I had no hope and wanted to end it, but now I'm much happier and no longer depressed
It's possible!! :D
Oh and my boyfriend is simply AMAZING, he's stuck by me through the entire thing! Love him sooo much

THANKYOU TO ALL OF YOU WHO HELPED AND SUPPORTED, YOU'RE ALL AMAZING ON HERE
XXXX

[Imaginary_friend]

:) yay! congratulations that's awesome :) i'm glad you're feeling so much better cos no-one deserves to feel rubbish. *hugs* :) you give me hope that i won't feel like this forever - thank you! x

[one_step_closer]

Very well done!

[~Grace~]

well done, youre doing so well xx

[[LittleMonster]]

thank you all
just remember no matter how low you feel you CAN get out of it, there is hope
xxxxxxx

[crazykat]

Well done hun, you are doing so well

[lozza]

well done, keep up the great work:)

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Wow! That's a really big change. Well done.
xxx

[Merc]

That was lovely to read! YAY for all your hard work!

[youngatheart]

that is brilliant, what an inspiration!

[-Rainbow-]

excuse the language but.....
THAT IS EFFING BRILLIANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! conratulations hun :) thats aweomse news. you are inspiring, for only a year ago to make that much of a turn around.. its truley awesome. so congratulations :) x

[bright and intense]

very proud, not that i know you, but that is so good :) x

[[LittleMonster]]

Thanks guys
I've had a bit of another rough time this week and last but pulling myself out of it now, trying not to spiral downwards again
love u all

[Doikers]

Well done , And Way to Go on throwing away that last blade ,thats huge ! * envious *

[Katiee]

Really amazing hun! (: *huggles* should be mega proud of yourself. (: xo

[lozza]

keep going hun, you are doing SO well!!!

[[LittleMonster]]

not doing so good now but hey

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

Keep fighting babe
xxxxxx

[smile5]

you've done so well so far, keeping fighting and you will get there. Dont give up

[[LittleMonster]]

thanks guys. I managed to not SI and now I'm 13 weeks free.. :D