Triggering - So slow

[Chibi moon]

i went to my pyscholictis appointment,but i maybe refered to anther departed,as i have failure issues loss greif and anxiety and conflict issuses,i feel like im telling my story over and over again and getting no where with it even if i tell it,it lifts a load off me but i feel like i need some one to help know,i know its to build up my profile for them to get a understanding of me but,i wish i could dissapper,or remove myself from life,so i dont want to keep telling my story over and over...it hurts each time and i cry and i have lost whom i was,and trying to find myself is proving hard.
i have lost alot of faith and my desires and things that made me happy no longer do so.
im 12 days free of any harm,the past 2 days have been so hard...urges and triggers effecting me,lucky i have hid under my fleece hello kitty blanket on the sofa with my kitty cat Leo.
sometimes i wish id sleep and never wake up again....every thing feels so slow right know...i feel like im numb empty and lifeless inside.

[lozza]

*cuddles* sounds as though things are pretty tough for you right now. Good on you for the 12 days SH free though... thats amazing!!!!
thinking of you

[akita]

Well done on the 12 days free, you can get to more days free.

[crazykat]

Very well done on 12 days, keep going

[Tig]

Aw, sending you lots of hugs. You sound like you are having a really tough but you're fighting the urges and that's fantastic, well done you honey. I hope things get sorted for you soon and things improve. We are all here for you xx

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Well done, keep going
xxx

[Ami]

12 days is great :) keep it up x