Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Everything reminds me of "it"

[artsyashley]

Well let me start off by warning people about what i am going to write, it is my story and it may be triggering to some people.....
Well I am having a hard time everything around me reminds me of the abuse that i went through. From the ages of 8 and 13 I was sexually abused, I was raped and hurt. The monster would do things to me that I should never be done to anyone ever, He used to take curling irons and turn them on and put them in me until it got extremely hot and would burn my insides, and he also did a lot of other things to hurt me. Well i just found out that i am unable to have children ever b/c i am too scarred from what happened. but things around me remind me of him, i can no longer use a curling iron, when ever i smell old spice it makes me throw up and just other things like that. I feel like i am not in control of my life. I do not know what to do

[bloodletting]

*hugs* i'm really sorry you had to go through all that hun, and sadly i can relate to one of your details all too well.
this isnt something you have to go through alone, no one should.
was your abuser prosecuted? does your family know, a close friend you can talk to about it? but ideally i think counselling would help a lot. will allow you to work through some of the trauma.
sorry i couldnt help more
Pm if you need to chat xoxoxox

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

*cuddles*

Sweetie, im so sorry that happened to you, no one should ever have to go through that.
Are seeking any professional help to help you deal with this?
i think thats a good start, and hopfully one day you’ll be able to move on.
it will take time though.
try not to let this drag you down too much.

You are such a beautiful person, remember that.

xx <3 helen

[perfection is a flaw]

*hugs* im so sorry you had to go through all that. no one should have to.
are you seeing anyone? like bloodletting said it would help work through some of the trauma.
take care
x x x

[crazykat]

*Gentle hugs*
I am so sorry you had to go through something like that
No one should have to go through that especially a child.
Have you ever spoken to anyone about this?
If you haven't you might find it helpful to speak to a counsellor about it.
I understand how it makes you feel like you are not in control of your life, tats ofen how abusers work by making you feel vunerable and like you have no control.
I feel like this too but slowly through counselling it helps you gain a little more control over your life.
Take care of yourself sweetie and if you ever need to talk PM me.
Kat xxx