don't know what to do

[whispering girl]

i was originally forced into therapy and wasn't exactly open with her. i really didn't want to be there but i had people who physically made me go. i know i wasn't open with her much and was a bit passive agressive/difficult. i ended up firing her after 3ish months. she was really nice and patient the whole time. she even said she would take me back when i was ready. she realized that i had family problems and a few other things. i ended up finding a reason to switch. the second one wanted me doing therapy in the community. (my first 2 were through the school. and were for more temporary stuff.) she stopped seeing me when the semester ended and doesn't really want me back. i ended up telling her a bunch of things that the first one was trying to get me to talk about. i thought that it would be in my file. i'm now seeing one in town. been to her since summer started. she's pretty nice. but i'm not really getting anywhere with her. i'm currently stuck on something from my past. she wants me to talk about it but i can't even bare to think about it. i know the school would let me go back to the first one if i wanted to. and it's being paid in general fees through the school if i use it or not. so i could go to both. (insurance pays for the one in town.) kind of feel bad for the way i was to the first one when i didn't want help. i have her email and the office is in the middle of campus. don't really know if i want to switch back since i was making a lot of progress with her but stopped going because i didn't want her to find out somethings about my past, that eventually came out anyways. or maybe see her just a few time or see her once/send an email and just ask what she thinks/apologize. i know this is pretty long but i wanted to know what other people think about all this.

I think at least discussing the possibility of going back with her is a good idea. Maybe ask her what she thinks. She sounds like she really had your best interests in mind, which is what you need in a therapist.

[Scarletdreamer]

I agree with frozenfairytale. The one you were with at first seemed to care the most, from what you've said. Not saying that the others didn't, it's just that the impression I get from what you wrote is that the first one was the most compassionate & had your best interests at heart. Otherwise she wouldn't've said that she'd be ready if you chose to come back.

*hugs*

[crazykat]

I agree with the others you should deffinetely have a chat with them, she is there to help. I am sure there wouldn't be a problem with you seeing her again. All the best
Kat xxx