Sorry this is so long, allot has happened tonight.
Because of the snow, none of my friends have gone into school as their parents say it's too bad to make them go, although the school refuses to close. I have problems being around loads of people without my friends there to make me feel safer, and I tried to talk to my parents about how I couldn't go. First of all they just said that I have to go the school don't care how I feel, then they started saying that I'm using it as an excuse to not go when I can't be bothered.
After that they tried to sugest loads of things, that I had already tried and when I told them they wouldn't work they just shouted at me saying I wasn't listening and just saying no to everything then went on to say I wasn't trying to help myself at all, I'm just avoiding everything I can and making everyone else help me. I have to do allot that I feel uncomfortable with, and I've been working really hard to start doing things I used to again, but they don't believe me yet again. Then my mum said that It's fake because I'm not 'consistant' because I can walk out the door and not have problems, but can't spend 6 hours with people who judge me and don't particulally like me and when I explained that it's not the outside I can't deal with, It's loads of people she just laughed.
They've been blaming all this on my boyfriend, who acording to them 'isn't there enough' and then is 'there all the time and your dependant on him' saying I can't go and see him ever again untill I'mm all better because walking 10 minutes down a road which has maybe one woman walking down it at worst is the same deal as walking around around 8:30am when all the school kids are out, and so are the people going to work and taking their children to primary. I really don't know what to do anymore, they're saying I'm making it up one moment, then that I'm too bad to do anything the next and it's obviously my bf causing it the next.
Has anyone any ideas on how I could try and get them to understand, or anyone who could help me show them that what I'm feeling is a serious problem? I don't know how long I can keep trying to push on trying when they wont even try and listen to me. : (
