I am a fifteen year old girl and i have been feeling suicidal since i was seven or eight years old but over the past few months it has been getting even worse and now i hear things occasionally.
I have never been to a therapist or a psychiatrist. I used to self harm but i have now stopped. What i recognize as symptoms all point to either schizophrenia bi polar type or Schizophreniform disorder which are basically the same thing. Sometimes i have episodes of feeling like a wild animal and wanting to tear off my skin and escape myself and commit suicide, i have attempted before but alas to no avail.
I cant tell my parents, i already tried a few years ago and it went unnoticed. If i tell one of the school councellors [she's also kind of a friend as i was in her class for a year and we get along well] that i am feeling suicidal at the very moment i am, does she by law have to call an ambulance or tell my parents that i am suicidal? does she have to tell anyone anything? i cannot see my doctor as he is friends with my dad....
Hey,
First it's really important that you find someone to talk to about these issues.
Since you are 15, in all countries i know of, the therapist/counsellor etc is bound by law to tell your parents if you are suicidal. They wouldn't call an ambulance unless you were actively suicidal: having a plan you were ready to execute or in immediate danger.
It's also really important that you don't try and diagnose yourself - I
t can be really dangerous and detrimental. And as much as you know about yourself, your feelings and experiences, you don't have the training or experience etc to diagnose yourself, only a trained professional can. You really need to find someone who can give you the support you need.
Are you able to see another Dr?
You also said 'one of the school counsellors' is there another that you don't know that you could speak to?
Perhaps your parents might even be more receptive now if you told them.... You could plan out what you wanted to say to them here, and we could all give you feedback....
I agree, go and see a different doctor. I think that you should definately talk to someone, the school councellor or a GP, so that you can get a support network in place. Being suicidal is not a good place to be in, obviously and you do need to get support with that.
I also agree that self diagnosis is dangerous, you can start to see symptoms where they aren't, and you can begin to behave so you fit in the diagnostic criteria. Be careful. Diagnoses aren't important, it should be more about getting the right support. I hope you're okay.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I think the counselor has a duty of care to tell your parents, yes - because of your age. Even if you see a different doctor, I think that they will get your parents involved but you need to see somebody.
When they do inform your parents, at least they will then understand the severity of what's going on with you and not just ignore it like before. You need help with this, it's not fair for you to go on feeling this low without help and support.
xx
Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want?
Wow, I can relate to a lot of that, I've been trying to kill myself since I was around 8/9 years old, & been self harming since I was 7.
It's nice to know others have been unstable/struggling since a very young age too, that I'm not alone with that.
Anyway!
Professionals need to tell your parents if you are suicidal or intend on taking your life, and you may also get sectioned if it is that serious(but not common unless you actually attempt & it's serious & you express the wish to end your life to them, so are a threat to yourself), but you need help, you need to talk about it, and get support. You shouldn't let your parents being told stop you from getting that. I know it's so scary but it's for your own benefit, & safety. Please get help. Don't suffer alone.
