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Triggering - Forgotten Truths
I'm not sure whether to continue. I would appreciate it if you could let me know what you think. Be honest =)
One - Faded Memories
Unlike some I attually remember my first day at school. My first day at nursery even. The first time I rode my bike, and the first time I fell off my bike. These are common first memories to have, but most kids don't have to remember the first time their mother went to prison, they don't keep the first letter of lies she sent. The broken promises she made. I remember, I remember almost everything even though it isn't always a good thing. The majority of what I can remember is good but there are some things I'd rather forget.
Remonising on my childhood is usually a pleasent thing to do. My Grandparents did everything in their power to keep my older sister and I happy. They where never to busy for us. I consider myself lucky to have been brought up by them. Yes, it was difficult not having a Mum or Dad around, there was always going to be that akward moment when some kid from school asks why I live with my grandparents, Nanna used to always tell me to say that my Mum worked away. Thats what they told me when I was a young child that my Mum worked away on a farm with all the animals. I always knew it wasn't true, but the thought of my mum working with the animals exited me and I loved to tell other people although I knew my story was totally false. I always loved animals and when my mum called I would have her tell me what it was like and ask how the horses where. My Mother loved me I knew it and she knew I knew it but it didn't stop her from telling me everytime she called and everytime my Grandad took us up to visit.
Most of my memories where filled with happiness, even the times my Mother was away. I loved my Mother more when she was in prison, I loved going up to visit her, it was when she was home I hated it, I hated going to see her, I hated that she had the choice to see us yet we would still go weeks without seeing us. Most of all I hated that she put her friends, drugs and boyfriends before my sister and I.
Last edited by Yan-yan : 03-01-2010 at 09:49 AM.
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"I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence. The quiet scares me because it screams the truth. Please don't tell me we had that conversation; I won't remember, save your breath cos whats the use?"
