am i the only 1?

[2faces7]

don't know if this is in the right place but i apologise if it isn't.

Just wondering wether im the only one that places a ulternative reality in there heads? Any free second i get i play out this alterntive world in my head, im me and it's like i play a differnt world in my head where it's second for second like the real world but obviously false. but like, i'll have conversations with people, go on road trips, play out certain situations etc. i know what im doing but, i dont understand when i started doing this or why, for aslong as i can remeber there hasn't been aday where i don't do this. I've managed to get the mental health advisor at uni to egt me a referal to my local cmht in jan for my 1st appointment, i started to see some1 when i was younger but stopped before the sessions properly started. So i don't really know what to exspect from it.

how honest i should be etc, beause things have changed alot in the way of, i haven't physically harmed for 2 years and i don't try doing "stupid" things and i don't go on what i call self destruct missions like i used to but sometimes i'll have a drink instead or like the thaughts are still there and i dunno sometimes i feel like where as before when i was hurting i would act out and get myself into trouble where as now all of my problems seems to be like, inside with a random out burst of self destrcuting but sometimes i feel like i am still self destructig but on the inside. I've achieved some stuff this year with my sport and got selected for the national side etc but atm i just don't seem to have any motivation with sport, life, or anything, i feel like im just going through the motions of everything rather than feeling what my life is. if that makes sense

sorry for the long rant

*hugs* i do something similar to this. I don't know what it is, but I think being as honest as possible is best. You're right, just because you're not physically self harming doesn't mean there isn't anything that needs to be addressed.

[DLT]

i do that too. and i feel like everyone does that to an extent, but i feel like i do it sooo much. like i constantly have scenarios playing in my head. and its not like an alternate reality....it's my ideal reality, what i would like to happen with everyone around me. and i constantly have conversations playing in my mind...and i will repeat sentences over and over again. like last night i was going to dinner with my friend. and all day long i was imagining a conversation with her in my mind. and it's not like i was anxious about what we would say and i was trying to script the conversation or anything. i had no motives for doing it....it was just running through my mind.
everyone fantasizes but i am embarrassed about the amount i do. its not really a problem. its just strange. i doubt i will mention it to my therapist unless she brings it up somehow.
is this what its like for you?
is this actually a problem or disorder or something? or does everyone fantasize this much?

[2faces7]

it's not like i do it every now and then i do it everyday and sometimes 4 ages in my head, as soon as i get that second to do it, it jus happens. and like i'll play out something but i'll play it out again with diffrent outcomes or diffrent conversation or thing with the sam person and stuff. Along side wit everything else it makes me feel like it's not a normal thing and i dont understand why i do it but it's like i spend more of my time doing this stuff in my head than what i do in my real life. 1 second i'll be doing one thing and then it will jump into something else. i dunno with everything else just feel like it just adds to the other problems that ive had for aslong as i can remeber.

[Fry]

I spend most of my time in my imagination too and it helps me a lot because I study writing and write a lot creatively. I don't think it's a bad thing at all! As long as it isn't interfering with your functioning. Maybe you should try and write some of it down, what goes on in these scenarios etc.
What I tend to find depressing is when I go through phases of writing letters to people in my head that I never send or act out in my head something I'd like to say to somebody or a certain way of being that I never manage in real life.
I think you should only mention it if it's causing you distress, I actually think it's a bit of a gift to be honest :)

[2faces7]

i like your way of thinking lol thanks

[Fry]

:D You're welcome.

[2faces7]

i wouldn't say not normal... because what is normal but i dunno the stage it's gotten to with me, im feleing a bit weiroded out by it lol

[star runner]

I do this too. I have for the last 20 odd years. It's like a play in my head with me as the lead. I once tried to talk to a friend about it as i thought everyone did this but she didn't "get it" at all. I think because my life has generally been quite crappy it's like a secret place i can go to. I have never told any GP or mh team because why would i...it's a safe haven and it does no harm to anyone else. If you feel it would be beneficial to talk too someone about it then i suggest you do. Good luck whatever you decide.

[2faces7]

thanks for the replies, it's nice to have that place buh i dunno frestrates me sometimes lol makes me feel like my head is always active but, got a new appointment to see cmht jan 7th so hopefully this time next year i'll be past this all :)