Advice on this... please? :)

[Darren]

I don't really know where to start but a beginning is somewhere in this mess.

I don't get on with my parents and I've really changed since my sister died. I hate to say it's because of that event that I've become more violent, but I guess it is, in truth. I have major mood swings which causes me to lose control and break things of different value, depending on my aggression.

School has gone downhill and I am now not attending. Since my sister died, I lost control of everything, including my mental stability. I feel lonely an awful lot. My mum says I'm crazy and I guess she's ashamed although I and a few others conclude she's like this because she's scared I'll go down the same path as my sister.

About an hour ago, I got warned my mother was going to call the police if one more thing is broken. I literally cannot control me... my aggression is a whole other side of me, which even I fear. Things have slipped down hill.

My mood swings can last for hours and a happy me can turn into a vengeful, psychotic, lonesome me.

I guess I need advice on; how do I get out of this mess? How can I change the outcome? What would happen if the police were called over this (I know I'd be arrested)? I'm 15 if that helps...

[Nici-x]

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a difficult time, and i'm sorry you had to go through losing a sister, it must be difficult.
You sound like you're very angry indeed, but it's such a good thing that you are able to stop and see that you can't control your anger. With this said, I really think that you should seek some support and help. Have you ever had counselling/therapy concerning the loss of your sister? A good place to start would be the doctor. You could print this post off and show them it if you think you would find it difficult to talk. Or write down what's going?
I'm sure your parents have great concern for you, and are actually very scared and upset to see you so angry, and upset too? Talk to your parents, tell them how you feel. Show them this post if you have to. Tell them you are going to seek help for your anger and mood swings. That in itself would be a relief for them to here i'm sure.
If the police came over what would happen would all really depend. It would depend on what you're parents do. If you smash up all of your parents house for example the police can remove you if that's what your parents want. The best thing for you to do would be to seek help, and I think your Dr may be the best place. Do you have a school counsellor you could see?

Take care of yourself.

[Merc]

what would help you?
What do YOU want from ppl? (in order to help this rage)

[NeverBetter]

im sorry to hear about your sister
it seems you are still grieving and you dont know how to show your emtions properly about how much it hurt so u turned them into this angrey range to show how you are feeling i think its best to find a proffesional to talk to to help you and explain by talking or letter or go see your doctor
i dont blame you for ur rage when my nan died i went of the rails i was a bitch to everyone i loved i took it out on everyone i started not going school ignoring everyone intil one day i realised what i was doing was hurting everyone eles and my nan would of never want this to happpen so i got help talk to someone and in time i got better but i still think of my nan everday of mylife ..............sorry if this dont help......................life isnt fair it takes the clostest away for us but there is always a reason and the end