The thread for people who don't fit elsewhere!! *potential triggers for everything*
So I thought that since there are other threads like this, there may as well be one in which I can fit. Hopefully there are other people like me out there, who have multiple diagnoses and want to be able to talk about all of the diagnoses instead of just one, like depression or anxiety.
I've been diagnosed with bipolar II for nearly 4 years now. I was shocked when I was first dxed, because I never thought I was bipolar. But it made sense... the euphoria... the horrible crashes... the giddiness... the addictive personality. I've been on 21 different medications (not all at once, though, lol) trying to find the right mixture for all of my problems. I also have an eating disorder (EDNOS-R), chronic PTSD, an anxiety disorder NOS, and personality disorder NOS. (I totally don't fit in any boxes, haha... all those "NOS" labels!! )
So come on in and hang out...
EDIT - as Irene as pointed out, this could become a breeding ground for competition, so please refrain from SIMPLY listing out your illnesses. I posted another bit about the intent of this thread on the second page.
Last edited by Scarletdreamer : 19-12-2009 at 01:04 AM.
Reason: stupidness on my part >_<
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Officially depression, but with complications that have never been separately diagnosed medically. But is basically Complex PTSD and attachment disorder - mix of dependent and avoidant pd, with a few borderline sprinklies.
Bunch of defence mechanisms really.
Good thread. I sometimes get tired of thread hopping!
Thanks guys. For those of you on LiveJournal there is a community of which I'm a member that made me think of this. It's called co_morbidity, and is really helpful. Anyway, I'm glad you think that this thread is a good idea!! :)
Zara, I have psychotic bipolar so I'm on Abilify (titrating off Geodon onto it), currently am on 20mg of it which is apparently a pretty high dosage? A girl I know at uni is bipolar and is only on 5mg... sooo... I don't know what to think. I also am taking 1200mg Neurontin (gabapentin) and 3-4mg Klonopin. Oh, and 40mg Geodon, but that's only for 5-7 more weeks. :)
*snuggles up in a squishy armchair and drinks some gingerbread tea*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
I have depression, anxiety, OCD. It's hard enough coping with one illness but when they're all battling together it's absolute hell. They seem to feed off each other.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Really, Labyrinth, you've got troubles with depression due to things that have happened to you, along with a mixed variety of dissociative defence mechanisms, along with paranoid psychosis. The whole bunch makes you anxious.
Thanks guys. For those of you on LiveJournal there is a community of which I'm a member that made me think of this. It's called co_morbidity, and is really helpful. Anyway, I'm glad you think that this thread is a good idea!! :)
Zara, I have psychotic bipolar so I'm on Abilify (titrating off Geodon onto it), currently am on 20mg of it which is apparently a pretty high dosage? A girl I know at uni is bipolar and is only on 5mg... sooo... I don't know what to think. I also am taking 1200mg Neurontin (gabapentin) and 3-4mg Klonopin. Oh, and 40mg Geodon, but that's only for 5-7 more weeks. :)
*snuggles up in a squishy armchair and drinks some gingerbread tea*
*hauls her own squishy armchair to sit next to you*
I think mine was officially "Severe Depression with Psychotic Features" but now it's just "Psychosis"?
I've never been on Abilify (aripiprazole yeah?) so I don't know about the doses, but they were considering putting me on it when I complained about my Risperidone.
Daily I'm on 5mg of Risperidone, 40mg of Fluoxetine and 150mg of Lamotrigine. And tbh, I think they're doing sh*t all.
I have eating disorders (a mixture of binge eating disorder, bulimia and anorexia over the years).
I have alcohol and drug addictions.
I have Emotional Dysregulation.
I've been a Self Harmer since I was 7.
I have ADHD combined.
I have GAD.
I have OCD.
I have Receptive Language Difficulties.
I have Communication Difficulties.
I have Severe and Complex Emotional Needs.
Medically I have M.E, which stands for Myalgic Encephalopathy, or another name is Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, and Acid Reflux Disease.
I could have Borderline Personality Disorder & Dependent Personality Disorder.
I have all of the symptoms, but no diagnosis, as the PD's are not commonly diagnosed / supposed to be diagnosed in under 18's (I'm 17)
I've just been told I have attachment difficulties - she wasn't very specific, but as with the PD's, I suffer from all of the symptoms and they do affect me severely.
There is talk about me having a PD. I'll be discussing all of this with my psychiatrist.
I've also been seeing CAMHS since I was 7 as well as other different services, I was on the Child Protection Register, & I had a Special Educational Needs Statement too, and for the last few years of school, I was in a SEN school, & I've been sectioned before, and I've tried to commit suicide more than... I'm not even sure now, 30+ times, I've lost count, since I was roughly 8/9 years old, but I have been pretty suicidal and have had dark moods for a long time now.
Hmmm. =/
Is it odd that all I know are problems? & I feel they are me? & without them... who am I? Despite hating them so much & wishing I didn't have them because of how badly they affect me? :s
*shrugs* Could be, but I like to know I'm not the only one with so many problems & I can freely share them here & ask questions such as the ones I just asked in my previous post.
Separation anxiety is diagnosed in children.
Dependent and borderline personality is the adult version.
I believe that there needs to be an adult attachment disorder, as all too often the diagnostic boundaries are blurry.
Emotional dysregulation is part of borderline, as well as depression, bipolar, etc.
It's all basically caused by relational trauma, which could fit C-PTSD in many cases.
Anyway. I 'just' have complicated depression caused by a series of traumatic and abusive life circumstances. Is enough for me. It would be nice if C-PTSD was medically acknowledged, but c'est la vie!
If I listed, like, everything that I could have, well, it would be a very long list.
Psychiatrists tend to go with a primary diagnosis, at least that's my experience.
I like to deconstruct the DSM, can't you tell!? :P I'd like to re-write it all one day, from a client centred perspective.
I know the Emotional Dysregulation is part of BPD, but my psych said she is reluctant to diagnose me with it as I'm under 18, so she said that is the "loose term" she's going to use for now. & I also know that a lot of my problems can be symptoms of BPD, but I haven't been diagnosed with that, so I'm listing them separetly.
I already knew that... hence why I was listing what I struggle with every day of my life.
Whether they are symptoms or relations to BPD, I don't know, all I know is that is what I struggle with. I have all the symptoms of BPD & DPD, but I have yet to be diagnosed with that, and since that won't be happening anytime soon, all I can say is I struggle with the symptoms, as well as my other problems & diagnosis's.
Hmm, I've been diagnosed with different things before, now it seems to have centred on BPD. Which, although I'm not happy with seems to be a catch all.
I dunno what I'm trying to say, but I totally agree with Morrigan, I'd much rather be seen as myself, with a few issues, than as a single diagnosis, or as multiple diagnoses. Diagnoses often miss out important aspects of a person and I have found can be unhelpful.
I also think that we need to be careful on the competiton front. It's not what you have that is important, it's how you deal with things.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Umm, let me clarify as the creator of this thread that I never intended it to be a front for competition. Nor did I want us to just list out what illnesses we have. Instead, its ORIGINAL PURPOSE was meant to be a place where people who didn't "fit in" with the "depression thread" and the "BPD thread" could come and just HANG OUT.
There. :) I'm not angry at any one of you, I just felt like my original intent had gotten completely twisted. If it's relevant to the conversation, leave a list of illnesses... as is, let's just get to know each other (if we don't already), talk about what we can do to improve our situations, struggles, and ourselves (as corny as that sounds), etc.
This is also a place where it's safe to vent about psychiatrists or therapy or meds or any of the struggles that accompany your illnesses. I think, as Irene said, there is a common thread in all of this. Self esteem, or self image, or self hatred.
So. I hope I clarified my purpose there. Sorry, Irene, for perturbing you. That was definitely not my intent.
*hugs everyone*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
I used to define myself by them as well. But there is a ME behind the labels, someone I want other people to know besides the labels. And I want all of us to find that "me" that's hidden away behind the labels that don't really matter in the end anyway.
Sorry if I hurt your feelings. If you don't feel like you're right for this thread, sorry then, but know that I didn't intentionally attack you or anyone else. I just felt that I needed to make my hopes for this thread known.
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Well, I don't know me without my problems, I define myself by them, they are all I've ever known, I doubt I'll find "me", I'm not to be found. There is no "me".
You didn't hurt/upset me, I'm just feeling pretty crappy, I apologize.
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