Triggering (Suicide) - Hospital and CAMHS.

[Sometimes Crazy]

So I'm not very safe right now. Unsafe enough to realise this and get help from my psychiatrist sooner than "scheduled" and I don't usually like telling people things. She mentioned hospital, but I really don't want to go in.

The reason I don't want to go inpatient is because I don't want to have to get used to new people and new psychs/therapists and have to trust people all over again. I *won't* do that, not when I'm like this. I know that if I go into hospital, yes I'll be in a safe environment, but it'll be worse because I won't trust the people round me.

Has anyone from here been under CAMHS and had to go IP? Were they discharged from "their" CAMHS workers and had to get used to new people?

Am just looking for some experiences. ty and sorry.

[whirlpools]

It's really brave to realise that you might need the help of hospital. Perhaps you could as your psychiatrist if there's any intensive support you can be offered outside of hospital, but under CAMHS there usually isn't. It's worth finding out, though.

When I was under CAMHS I went IP. I wasn't discharged from my workers because they only wanted me in hospital in the short-term. The hospital wanted me to stay for the longer-term for treatment (months rather than weeks) but they said that, as hospital was a treatment in itself, I wouldn't be able to continue with my psychotherapist at that time.

My original workers from outpatients weren't keen on this because they didn't think hospital would work as a treatment for me, but rather as a "break"/to keep me safe for a little while. My workers did say, though, that if I chose the longer-term treatment then they would still see me when I was discharged. Also, they would visit for meetings when scheduled.

In the end I decided to discharge myself back to my previous care after a fortnight.

Because it's different everywhere, it's best to try not to worry about these things until you've asked your psychiatrist. Most CAMHS inpatient units keep people for treatment rather than crisis admission (so, longer than a few weeks) but some may be different. Ask if you'll still be able to see your current workers regularly, and how long you'll be likely to stay in for. Also ask if the hospital will offer psychotherapy of their own - lots don't. Ask also if your current workers will take up working properly with you on discharge (I strongly think they will).

When I was in hospital, I did have to get used to new people but I was still in contact with my regular team.

At the end of the day, if it's what will keep you alive then it's worth trying, because if you die then you'll never see your team again (sorry that that sounded ridiculously obvious). xxx

[UnanimousAnonymous]

I went to IP three times whilst under CAMHS and i was in each hospital for 6months to 1year but my team stayed in touch, came to regular reviews and team meetings and arranged the support for when i was discharged and i carried on seeing them when i left each IP admission.

I think it could be a good thing for you to go to IP especially when you recognise you are unsafe.

The hospital could be really beneficial and you could get on well with the staff and patients. My last admission to IP was actually life changing, i was there for one year but i built up a good relationship with my key team and the patients were like my family.
I felt like it wouldnt work, i wouldnt trust anyone and i wouldnt talk and it took quite a long time and i had many ups and downs but it helped me in alot of ways. i didnt realise how much it helped until i left.

I would seriously consider it, if things are so bad, you dont have anything to lose by trying, huh?

Good luck hun, take care and im here if you want to chat xxx