Triggering (SI) - Book a doctors appointment - scared
Hi, all.
So I've been pretty bad recently. After talking to Boyfriend, Brother and a close friend, I finally managed to approach my mum and let her know I'm struggling.
It was extremely hard and there's a lot I couldn't tell her, like I didn't mention the self-injury, but I did mention that I've been concerned about my mental health.
She insisted that she thought my mood swings, depression, panic attacks and disrupted sleep etc can all be put down to stress. Maybe she's right - maybe she's wrong.
Regardless, I insisted I see our GP.
I really wanted to go with Boyfriend, but my mum booked it for me and I think he'll be at work.
So I have to sit in that room all on my own and tell him everything. Scared.
Well done for getting this far hun :) Just remember it's just a bit of a chat, nothing more nothing less. If the doc thinks it isn't mental health related then it might put your head at rest and even if they do think something is wrong then it is better to receive some help rather than going it alone. I hope it all goes well x
That is a huge step well done, there are a lot of people on here, including myself, who have been in your position and I can empathsis about how scary it feels.
I promise you it isn't as bad as you think it will be, for a lot of people their GP is their first point of call fro mental health problems and I guarantee your GP will have seen somebody in the exact same position, and have lots of different ways in which he could help you.
About going alone too... don't be frightened. It might be a little easier for you to open up without somebody so close there with you, you could call or see your BF after and get a cuddle etc.
You can do this, go and get the help you need and deserve.
It will be okay. Be brave.
Take really good care of yourself and let us know how it goes, okay?
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~Beauty without intellence, is a materpiece painted on a napkin.~
thats a massive step and a reallly positive one. can you ask you bf if he can have some time of work to accompany you? or re arrange for a time when he can be there?
I think you've made a really good decision by choosing to go and see your GP. Very brave & it'll definitely be worth it even if it is stress, at least you'll know for sure and be able to work on ways to reduce it which the doc may be able to help with.
Let us know how it goes?
I wish you the best of luck. xx
I'm so glad to hear you told your mom, that is one of the hardest things to do! I'm also glad she has made your doctors appointment. It can be a hard thing for a parent to hear their child is suffering and sometimes they go in denial and say its just stress etc.
I just wanted to let you know, that I am terrified of doctors. I have never met anyone in real life as scared of a doctor as me. I put off seeing my doctor for years and years and finally about 3 weeks ago I went. I sat in the waiting room alone and I went in alone and told her everything and it was the best thing I've ever done. I felt great afterwards that I had done something I found so scary and I think next time I go it will be easier. Its hard to say how you're feeling but remember its nothing to be ashamed of and you are not the only one with these problems.
I hope your doctor is as good with you as mine was with me. Good luck and let us know how it goes *hugs*
Thanks for all your replies, everyone.
I've decided to give it a go on my own. I really do want Boyfriend there, but I've been too dependant on him recently. He says he doesn't mind but I do...I want him to be my partner, not my emotional crutch, you know?
I'm still very worried about going, but to make it easier I've made a bullet-point list of things that I want to talk about.
I plan to print it off and just give it to him, then at least he can prompt me and I won't be sitting there floundering and spluttering for the right words.
Hey well done this is a massive step and so so brave.i will be thinking of you and hope it goes ok.i also think the list is a really good idea.i can also understand why you dont want to feel you are relying on/needing your boyfriend and others too much but also please dont be afraid of letting them be there for you at the times emotionally when you need it most.Good luck and best wishes.xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
That's a huge, very positive step!
Well done.
Great idea on the list; it can take some of the stress off with not having to 'say' it. Also, you won't forget anything.
Pls let us know??
xx
Thanks, everyone.
Feeling pretty anxious and low right now.
Looked into moving out of my uni flat so I can move back home today but doesnt look like it's going to happen. Just going to go on and on running myself raggid to pay the rent for the flat when I can't even be there more than once a week because of placement. :( It's hopeless.
Harmed again...been doing it a lot recently.
Everything feels like its getting on top of me again.
when is your appt?
I hope soon.
One thing that was suggeasted to m, awhile ago; writing down all that screaming in my head.
To 'get it out' and then either keep it to work on later, or rip it up, to signify it was gone, at least for the time being.
It sounds silly, I know. But it did occasionally work.
Just a thought...
I'm sorry you have harmed. Do you need med. attention or can you care for them?
My appointment is this morning at 10 o'clock. I'm so nervous. I feel like I'm making a fuss over nothing. I'm being stupid. I should be able to deal with all of what's going on.
I looked after myself, romperfry, thanks for asking.
I don't think its a fuss over nothing. It can be a really scary thing. Its not a matter of should or shouldn't, its a matter of what is. Sometimes there are things going on beyond your control. I think its really good that you're seeking help, and in a way that is dealing with whats going on.
I went and it was fine. My GP was brilliant and very understanding. He looked through my list and added it to my file at the GPs office.
We spoke about what might be causing all the things I wrote, and discussed how long it had been going on for.
He booked me in for a blood test to check my thyroid and for diabetes to see if either of those things are making things worse.
He gave me the materials I need to refer myself to a local mental health hospital for the possibility of therapy.
He gave me a depression assessment questionnaire to fill out and take back to him as soon as possible, and one to complete in 6 weeks time.
He also prescribed me a 30 day course of Fluoxtine, advising me to think about it and if I feel it will help, then to take it. But Im not sure...
Well done for going, that was an amazing step! What aren't you sure about? Perhaps writing down a list of pros and cons will help you think about it a bit clearer? How are you feeling now? xxx
I'm not sure about the pills.
The plan we made was that I'd do the questionnaire my GP gave me so he can assess how severe my depression is, plus have a blood test to check for anything physical that might be making it worse.
I have already completed the other questionnaire and its all ready to be sent off to the people who provide therapy and stuff.
I'm just not sure about the pills.
Fluoxetine is Prozac, right? I'm scared about it.
Yes, it's Prozac. I've just been changed onto Fluoextine so I'm on it at the moment. I can totally understand why you'd be scared, and it's entirely your choice whether you decide to start them. But it might be worth a try, and if you don't like it you can always come off it or change onto a different pill?
That's great he checked your thyroid,etc. It is something they are meant to do first off.
Glad he was so understanding and helpful. Hold on to him, you are very lucky!
What is worrying you about the pills?
The fact of needing medication?
Or more a worry of possible side effects?
Maybe if you can narrow it down it will help make the decision easier.
Remember tho, it is entirely up to you.
You could start them now or wait for test results, or even wait till trying therapy for a bit...but I'm guessing there will be a wait list so it may be a while away just yet.
I guess it comes down how safe you think you will be.
If you do NOT feel safe, as it sounds like, pls tell the MH team exactly how you are feeling, as they may be able to speed up the wait time.
Again, good job!
Let us know what you decide ok??
xx
& it'll definitely be worth it even if it is stress, at least you'll know for sure and be able to work on ways to reduce it which the doc may be able to help with. 
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