Triggering (SI/Suicide) - It's started again

[Doikers]

So its started again, I moved house and thought it would be a new start , no more S.I. and it was like like that with only a couple of slip ups for about 3 weeks but for the past 11 days I've cut everyday, sometimes 2 or 3 times a day, the last time it was like this I ended up in hospital and I don't want that even though I have been having suicidal thoughts and urges too, Last night I was taking my meds and I had to stop myself from just taking the lot at once , I am scared to tell people as I don't want to end up back on the psych ward , I just hate myself sometimes , I feel the cutting isn't enough , like I need to go deeper , I'm just so screwed up I don't know what to do , sorry to ramble I hope this makes sense .

[crazykat]

I think you should tell someone that you are struggling that way you can get support before it gets even more out of hand. By asking for support shows a willingness to do something about it so I doubt you would get put back into a pysch unit. You can get through this. Take care
Kat xxx

[chocostashchick]

hey, how are you doing now?
what helps me with my meds is using a med-minder that i put all the doses in for the whole week ahead of time and then when it's med time, the pills are already all organized and i don't have to fuss with all the bottles
maybe that would help you take them safely?
what i am more afraid of than anything else is going back to the hosp. i am sorry it scares you too.
the only thing that makes me feel better about it is knowing what i have to do to stay out of there.
you don't want to go deeper because it will get you put back there so it isn't even an option
plus you dont deserve to hurt yourself like that, because it's only a temporary distraction for the problem and not a solution to the problem and you deserve a solution
remember that you can always call a crisis line or something if things get too screwed up and confused
*hugs* hope you are okay. talking really helps. keep posting here!