Triggering (Suicide) - Always to be nothing. (SI)

[BreakingDawn]

Sooooo...I have been planning to kill myself on my 21st bday. This I have been planning since I was...17? I think, and I'm now 20. My bday is August 29th btw..umm. I have been drinking, and my mum and aunt..or just people in general joke about me having a "drinking problem". "your drinking alone in your room, and hiding the drinks" no im not.
well thats a lie actual lol. Im moving away from my mum, I wont have to talk to her, i could self harm drink smoke, whatever...I havent cut in 2 weeks, I reallyyy want to, but i have burned my arm a couple days ago. I still want to do it though. I'm bored now so bye..

[in another life]

*hugs Kase*
Hun I'm sorry you are feeling this way and that you have been planning to kill yourself. I wonder what's the significance of your 21st birthday, why you are planning to do it then? or even why you think this is an option for you? This is a very permanent solution to problems that can be dealt with, not to mention all the people that would miss you and won't want you to do this to yourself.
Can I say well done for not cutting in two wks, that shows great courage and strength and that in fact you are a fighter!
Have you spoken to anyone (like a dr or psychologist) about how you are feeling?
Best wishes hun, keep fighting - better days will come!

[BreakingDawn]

I just planned that would be the date, me and a friend planned it. but i dont think he'd going to go through with it, he probably thought i wasnt serious. I just thought that would be a good day i guess, if nothing got better then why not. i know some people will miss me..I'm moving so i wont have my councler, i was going to see a theripist and try anti-depressants but im moving so i cant.

[lost in dreams]

Just because thiongs are not better by you 21st doesn' mean they won't get better after that honey, you have to keep fighting, taking small baby steps every day. *hugs* life is always worth fighting for.