Feelings

[lamestate]

Suddenly, after months of citalopram-induced numbness, there are too many feelings here.

I'm pretty stressed. Work has been really hard - I seem to be doing three peoples' jobs at the moment and they won't stop giving me more to do. Basically, I haven't got the qualifications most of my colleagues have so I feel more under pressure to impress in other ways - i.e. by taking on a variety of different jobs, trying to be sunny and unruffled as much as possible... I've done ok so far - I've been promoted twice since I've been there, above some of the others, but now they're heaping too much on me.

I'm happy to do extra work - I tend to come in at least 15mins early and leave only when I've finished everything I need to do - but they're giving me so much to do at once... I'm getting it done, but I'm just feeling stressed and miserable.

I'm getting married, too and there's so much to do there as well.

I just feel so sad all day - after the intensity of my day all I want to do is sit down and cry and cry. Things wind me up and last night I was lying in bed, angry and depressed at the same time and just wanting to bleed.

What do I do? I'm too afraid to refuse work, too ashamed to let on how angry people make me. The other half is supportive but I can't bend his ear all the time. He shouldn't have to put up with that all the time.

What do I do?

[Mimsy]

This is going to sound really harsh... but learn to say no. Or you'll end up crashing and burning. You have proved that you're good! You've been promoted twice and it sounds like you work really really hard. You're a gem to any employer- so stop trying to impress. You're good. The hard thing to learn is that we all have a limit, I learned the hard way.. so start to recognise that you're working as hard as you can and right now, you cant do it. Just practise in the mirror 'i'm really sorry, but I'm so swamped right now.' Put yourself first, just for once. I let myself be bogged down with everything and it did me so much damage.
Good luck, Miriam xxx

[Merc]

She's exactly right. It's hard to say no but it WILL become easier. Your health isnt worth this.
You ARE doing a great job or they wouldn't be promoting you...congrats by the way!!
Could you sit down with your boss and just have a bit of a chat? Just say there's a bit too much right now and you need to lighten the load alittle. Because they know you are such a good worker i'm sure they will be happy to accomodate you. Use the upcoming wedding as a reason if you need to. That in itself is stressful and there IS so much to do.
Good luck and let us know what happens ok??
romp