Going cold turkey (Poss SI trigger)

ProzacSmile · 28-10-2009, 10:08 PM

I looked at myself in the mirror today. I mean REALLY looked. And it disgusted me. I went straight into my room, into my SH bag and threw it all in the dustbin. All my blades, all my dressings, everything. I'm going cold turkey and i will fight this.

Ampelmann · 28-10-2009, 10:43 PM

Wow! Thats a very brave thing to promise yourself. I hope things work out for you x

Chloe. · 28-10-2009, 11:27 PM

Wow, that's a big step.
I hope things go well.
You can do it!
(:

Gone. · 28-10-2009, 11:43 PM

That's massive hun. Well done and I really hope you can do it.
Look after yourself and stay as strong as I know you can do xx

ProzacSmile · 29-10-2009, 11:12 PM

Thanks.. i'm trying but its been a really hard day

bingie · 29-10-2009, 11:31 PM

good luck with it all and keep us updated k :)

StaceyBee · 31-10-2009, 11:15 AM

That's really good, hope it works out for you, I know you can do it :D
Let us know how it goes yeah?

Wonderful. · 31-10-2009, 11:52 AM

That's brilliant!
You can do this, stay strong and keep fighting!
=]

Ninja Orange · 31-10-2009, 11:07 PM

Wow. Really.
That's a really brave step hun. I hope it'll work.
xx

Gone. · 31-10-2009, 11:13 PM

Sometimes it will be hard. But you have just got to keep fighting and remember what you are fighting for.

~IntoxicatedRainbow · 01-11-2009, 09:22 PM

That's great hun :) Hope it goes well. You can do it. *hugs*

stargirl144 · 02-11-2009, 12:13 AM

well done, thats amazing!!
x

roseanne · 02-11-2009, 01:34 AM

Thats wonderful and really brave.
Stay strong and keep fighting
xxx

ProzacSmile · 03-11-2009, 11:18 PM

Thanks everyone for the support. I'm trying really hard, but it's proving to be incredibly difficult. My on/off boyfriend has decided that we should be completely off now, and I don't even really know why. I think I was clinging on to the hope things would work out between us, but I suppose they won't. Tried to sleep to forget about it, but all I can do is trace my scars with my finger and scratch invisible itches. I'm feeling very low right now and I can feel myself falling further and further. I know I still have a lighter if things get that bad.. but I'm really really trying. Not that anyone belives me :(
Sorry for the little rant there, but thanks again everyone for your support, i hope you're all okay.
xxx

bingie · 04-11-2009, 08:37 AM

hey hope you're ok - you know your're stronger than this and you dont need to hurt yourself. Once this feeling has passed you will be ok. Just think to that

Chaos. · 08-11-2009, 02:48 PM

How are you now?

x

ProzacSmile · 08-11-2009, 07:37 PM

I'm really struggling :( I havent had my meds in 3 days and i feel so low i don't know what to do. I'm trying to keep distracted but all i can do is drink myself into a stewer :(

ProzacSmile · 09-11-2009, 11:45 PM

aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhh hhh i dont know how much longer i can keep this up :(

Ampelmann · 09-11-2009, 11:55 PM

*hugs* Think of how much you've achieved this far. It's getting late, is there someone you can be with until you feel safe enough from the urges to be able to sleep? I know thats not a long term solution and i'll try and think of something more useful to say but my brain is really too tired at the moment. Take care hun, you can get through this x

ProzacSmile · 09-11-2009, 11:59 PM

Nope, no one cares. It's just me, all alone. As always. Can't deal with it anymore. Whats the point?