I'm so confused. There's been some people after me and I don't know who they are and they've given me the wrong medication so that I have become confused and I can't figure it out.
So I've been tapering off the dosage of my medication (It's meant to be Fluoxetine but it's not, it's a confusion drug) and my partner has freaked out... so for him, I've said I'll take them at the proper dosage again because I don't like to see him so upset. But I've written a note to put in my bag explaining what's going on in case I lose it completely and I'm found wandering...
He's got me a new prescription from the doctor of what he says are the proper pills (Fluoxetine) but how do I know they've not got to him too and he's got the wrong meds but he's confused now and thinks they're the right ones?
And what is this confusion drug they've given me? Is it safe to take in pregnancy?
I'm 24 weeks pregnant and I'm worried about it all... it's all a bit dodgy. I don't know why these people are after me. This morning they made me forget everythingis about what is going on, but now I've remembered again. It was scary though having them steal my thoughts like that.
Have you got any professionals to talk to about this confusion? Maybe your hormones are going a bit all over the place due to the pregnancy but I think the tablets are safe. What would be the reason in people swapping them for tablets that make you confused? Is there any logical reason? It's about reality testing. Your partner trusts the tablets and I'm sure you trust your partner so have faith in them. I would speak to your gp about this, just to let them know whats going on. I hope that things improve for you.
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i don't think your partner can have been confused because to do that they'd have to get him to take what you think are confusion tablets. he wouldn't give you the wrong ones. try to take your meds, they should help the confusion, instead of letting it get worse.
Last edited by tamo >bhūtā : 27-10-2009 at 06:49 PM.
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I agree with ^ your partner could not have been made confused unless he had also been taking them.
You said you have tapered of the dose - did your professional explain why this was? Was it due to the pregnancy, and have you discussed going back up to the normal dose, or indeed your concerns, to the professionals, i.e your GP or psych?
*cuddles* I hope you can get the help you need soon.
Roiben x
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thanks for replying, I've been away all week so I only just read your replies. I'm tapering off the dose to try and get less confused, they never told me too, but then, they wouldn't because they don't believe me and they think it's Fluoxetine.
I've got my appointment tommorow and I really don't want to go but I will What is the point though, because no one believes me?
There's people following me, and I've seen them. They are driving Black Jaguars and sometimes motor bikes. They followed me all the way up to Yorkshire. And I know they did, I saw them on the motorway and there was one parked up the road from where we were staying. Then on the way back we stopped at a service station and when we came back to our car, there was another black Jag parked a few cars away and a man was watching me. So yeah... they're watching me. I have no idea why, I don't know why they want to confuse me... and I feel like there's nothing I can do because no one believes me.
They gave me some meds that they say will make me less confused and sleep better (that sounds good!) but if I don't take them I'll get put in hospital (bad! who's going to look after my 2 yr old? My partner will have to leave work and we'll have no money)... however, I said to them that if they confuse me even more then we'll know that those meds aren't what they say they are aswell, and they said if they confuse me more I'll have to go to hospital...
Will they notice if I don't take them but say I have? Because the way I see it is that if they have tampered with my new tablets then I'll get even more confused and go to hospital, but if I tell them I haven't taken them they'll put me in hospital... so it's a lose/lose situation
The new meds are supposedly Olanzapine... I don't really need them but they don't believe me, just like I said they wouldn't. I'm not sure they are really Olanzapine though anyway, I think they might be new confusion drugs.
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I took one last night. It made me very sleepy and I'm still sleepy today. My fast thoughts and energy have stopped today and I'm sleepy! But I'm still very confused. I'm still not convinced I did the right thing, I think they're drugging me to keep my quiet and make me confused... Pete was upset though so I took the pill last night. I've got to take another tonight and I don't really want to because I don't feel quite like myself today.
Also... why would they put me in hospital just for being confused?? I'm not being dangerous to anyone and I've even stopped cutting myself. My depression is much better than a few weeks ago before I got confused. There's something not right going on I think they want to trap me there but I don't know why.
It just suddenly happened. I had depression that was steadily getting worse and worse for the last year, which culminated in suicidalness for the last few weeks. Then I stopped taking my Fluoxetine because I figured out it wasn' tthe real thing I was being given because a) it wasn't working and b) I was so confused - because there's people spiking my Fluoxetine to make me confused (I don't know why, they are after me and watching me but I don't know why).
So what triggered the confusion was when they started swapping/spiking my Fluoxetine, which is why I cam eoff it. And then my depression suddenly got a lot better, which proves they weren't really Fluoxetine.
could it be that your depression got so severe that you're now experiencing psychosis? the confusion and other stuff makes it seem that the psych could be right. given that if you don't take the meds you might end up in hospital, i think the best thing is to give them a chance. that way there's at least a chance that they will help the confusion. if you don't take them you will most likely stay confused.
could it be that your depression got so severe that you're now experiencing psychosis?
maybe... I don't know. I've been very depressed before though and this never happened. I'm not sure it is psychosis... I know the symptoms sound like it but I just don't think it is - everything is very real.
I've taken my meds every night since Monday, like I was meant to. My main reason being that my partner has been shamelessly emotionally blackmailing me into taking them. I'm getting such mixed feelings about them... I dunno.
On the one hand, they do help me sleep, which is wonderful. On the other hand, the next day I feel like a zombie then get steadily better, until around 3.30-4 when I go totally manic! To be honest, I quite enjoy the mania. I get a lot done!
Today I've felt like things have become a bit clearer... I'm still getting confused though. But I've been able to go out on my own today (with my 2yr old) without too much anxiety about the people following me. I'm still looking around for them, but I haven't seen anyone or got bad feelings. I've been struggling to go out because it's been so scary with the people watching me - I've felt like they can mind read my thoughts and they're always close. I'm taking the car (I'm alright in the car) everywhere, even just down the end of the road and parking as close as possible to where I have to be... but still, I'm going out!
I'm seeing the psychiatrist again tommorow afternoon. I don't want to... but I've done what I was told (taken my meds). I'm worried because I'm still confused and not myself and I don't want to be put in hospital.
Can they section me if I refuse? Because I really don't think it's nessercery to be put in hospital - I'm functioning reasonably well and looking after my daughter alright... why would they put me in hospital just because I'm confused and people are after me? Wouldn't their time be better spent trying to catch these people who are watching me?
What is the point though, because no one believes me?
