Triggering (SI) - hopeless

winnie · 31-07-2007, 08:38 PM

Managed two weeks without self harm,felt so good,even though two weeks is nothing.Then last night i slipped big time,got into talking about my dad to my housemate,thought id got over the fact that he dosnt really bother with me or care but it brought up all the emotions i thought id dealt with ages ago.Felt so bad,couldnt fight the urge anymore and now im back to square one,feel so hopeless and my housemates shutting herself in her room and wont talk to me.just wanna cut,but i dont wanna do that anymore

~invisible~girl~ · 31-07-2007, 10:37 PM

You're not back to square one. Two weeks is a long time, and slipping up once doesn't mean that you've thrown that away. Even if you can't stop entirely all at once, doing it less often is still progress. Rather than think of it that you went two weeks without self harming, and then slipped up, try to think of it that you've gone from doing it however often (once a day, once a week, however often you were doing it), to more like every two weeks, which is still an improvement even if it's not finished yet, it's definitely progress.

Mimsy · 31-07-2007, 11:05 PM

Its just a slip, 2 weeks is fab!! Now you can concentrate on a bit more each time. You're doing fantastic. Read the slipping up thing on here (advice, SI, sticking to stopping). You are not alone in feeling this way, and you can beat it!! Keep going.
Take care, Miriam xxx

MammaMia · 01-08-2007, 12:25 AM

Two weeks is amazing, I can promise you that. Saty strong hunnie & keep going. Sometimes you think you're over something but it can come back and those emotions & thoughts about it can all come back I suposse. Like this incident happened in March, I feel I've moved on & gotten over it. But some days I don't feel like that and get really upset about it. I know I shouldn't think about it but sometimes I just can't forget :(

winnie · 01-08-2007, 01:35 PM

thanks for all the replys.Feeling a little better bout it today,didnt cut last night even though the urge was preaty bad and that always puts me in a better mood and the suns out to play too.

Trucktastic · 01-08-2007, 01:42 PM

Not cutting is really good, especially the urges you had.

Well done! (I mean it - that makes you stronger than me!)

Take care, and I hope you have a better day, especially with the sun making a show!

Loz x