Triggering (ED) - im stuck please help

[x.Char.x]

i dont know what to do, i dont even know what is wrong im just sat here feeling so helpless

i've been on antidepressants for nearly a year now but i've all of a sudded started suffering again. the odd thing is that i seem to get really badly depressed in oct/nov as stupid as it may sound but its the third year running now.
the last two years i took an overdose's both in oct/nov

im scared

its happening for no reason

its almost subconciously like a year anniversary, is this even possible???

i used to suffer with an ed but that seemed to kind of get better, but now thats back too

i dont want to ask anyone for help as i feel like such a failure

i get better and everyone thinks im fine n then i just go **** again

whyyy? someone please tell me why :(

i cant even face the day.

[roiben]

There are a number of possible reasons for this:

1) it could be possible that your depression is Seasonal Affective and is triggered by the changes in amount of light available in these months

2) Your depression could be moving in phases (mine is) and this time of year is a lower phase for you.

3) It could be a change in routine or a specific event that happened around this time of year.

Most importantly, if you notice this happeneing it may pay to speak to your Dr or treatment team, as they may want to amend your medication dose to cover the shift in mood.

*hugs*
Roiben x

[x.Char.x]

Thank you for the responce

I really dont think its SAD as i've had many bad stages in summer months too

I've just moved to uni...feel really happy here at least i think but maybe this has started it?

Im just so frustated as there is no specific reason i can put my hands on and then i get more angry at the fact im so frustrated its like a viscious circle i cant get out of!

About the moving in phase thing...how do u realise that this is happening to you? do u have any triggers or is it just random?

Just need to know im not the only one that this happens too :(

[roiben]

I have picked up on my moods reaching regular stages at different points in the year over a reasonably pattern. I think I notice this because it has happened over quite a number of years so I can look back and pick out times when similar things have happened.

Like you, I also have some bad patches across Spring and Summer so do not believe mine is explained as SAD, but I do not have Bi-polar as a diagnosis. My belief is that my moods shift between phases...

Sometimes keeping a note of how you are at different times can help as it means you can look back and reflect.

It may pay you to talk to your Dr about it though

[it'sonlyblood]

One question.....are you being compliant and true to letter on taling your meds and being honest with your Pdoc? Being straight up with your Pdoc and attending appointments is a basic staple in maintaining wellness and a (semi) regular routine in daily life. Are you Med compliant? Do you have reg. visits to your Pdoc? I suggest a serious talk with your provider, and maybe shed some light on things for you......best of luck and be well. P.