Triggering (SI/ED) - need to talk

[finding.my.wings]

where do i begin, sorry for posting another thread- but i would really like some support, please.

a week or two ago it all seemed such a good and esay idea, give up pills, stop harmng,fix eating...but it didnt work- if anything i can resist for a while but it all just comes back stronger. i know its freedom that i want- but i didnt know it would be like this. more and more often now tears occur and over such stupid things- i hear what everyone isnt saying- things like im not worth anything... and the big question--the biggest one of all why did one guy choose to lay down his life for me; why when no one need care that much about me. i know its a horrible question, but its one that i cannot believe or accept the answer for. i need someone to talk too- chat helps sometimes but i jsut need a real person, someone to give me a hug and tell me its gonna be ok. tell me ill make it throught the day. i hate the round and roundness of things in my head their driving me crazy.

i get so angry at everyone telling me that all this is wronng- dont they think that i know its wrong--part of me jsut wanted someone to tell...all that im doing is actually ok/to almost hlep me in this. argh. sorry

[88shelz]

you need to find someone you feel comfortable to be honest with and chat with them. it could be a friend, doctor, family member,phone line.
once you do that you wil find it easier to open up and say whats bothering you and have support offered.

everybody needs someone to talk to from time to time so be brave and do it. xx

[~*forever_broken*~]

*hugs*

I wish I could give you a real hug, luv.

Please take care.

*squishes*

Ally