I cant, I just cant keep fithing this, I dont have the strength, I know its stronger than me, why do i even try fighting it?
I neeed to feel pain, I need to cut, I need to do damage, I need to punish myself, But I really want to end it... the easy way!
I wish I could fight it, I wish i was strong enough, I wish I could win, but i cant, im not, i wont! :(
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
Hello Laura. Who is saying that you can't fight this, that you have no strength? Where does that idea come from? Likewise from where does this thought "I need to feel pain" come from?
If you look at these thoughts, you will see that they are only unquestioned beliefs. They have no power over you. They are just like rainclouds - they block out the sun for a while, but then they burst. And when they burst they release rainbows, a clear sky, and boundless light.
All the best, much love, and many cuddles
-oli
"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and wrong because sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
I have managed to survive 3 suicides.....thenks to great docs and fast ambulances.....believe me, you don't want that. Trust me.....hell, i fall on my face almost every damn day, but i have a support system and a counsellor.....do you have these things? It sounds like you are feeling dangerous....it's always better to call crisis and counselling, or the suic. hotline if you feel like this. Please reach out for the help you so muchly deserve. PM me if you like I'm here tonight for a while maybe we can chat, and you can vent some emotions....it always helps to talk things out with a friend or peer.
You are strong. Stronger than you know. You can beat this. You won't give up. You're better than that. You will fight, and you will win. I know you can do it.
You don't need to feel pain. You don't deserve that. You deserve to be loved and cared for, not hurt. You are such a wonderful person. I wish everyone in the world could know how amazing you are.
*cuddles*
Stay strong, stay safe, and you can do this.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
Thanks guys! :) I made it through last night, thanks to two amazing mates on here! (Oli and Grainne, You helped me so so much) Thanks guys, but im still not through this one! :( Im still trying with the little bit of energy I have left to fight it as long as I can, but i know i will give in to it, just dunno when! :(
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
You believe you will give into it because you have done in the past. But that doesn't mean you will again. Imagine if every time the urges came you remained happy, and laughed as they disappeared. If all your fears were met with a playfulness that continues to enjoy life even as many difficulties are brought up. If you watched as they became weaker and weaker, until you forgot them entirely.
This can happen. It is possible. May you always know true joy and boundless love.
"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and wrong because sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
