Triggering (SI) - Please.

[Ingenue]

I'm really sorry as this is going to sound so pathetic and stupid. But i'm really considering self harming and although i really want to, i don't want to aswell because it's mine and my boyfriends year anniversary and i really don't want to upset him today.
I just feel so pathetic and useless. Useless is the best word.
Everything i try to do, i'm rubbish at it. It sounds ridiculous i know, but i'm below average in my subject grades, i'm below average at sports, and today i tried out a dance class my flatmate hosts, and i was so bad that she actually laughed.
I feel shit.
I've never been good at trying new things, as i always decide i'm rubbish and i should give in. And now my dad's pressuring me to start driving lessons and i need to get a job and i just have no confidence.
I just hate starting new things because its just something else to fail at.
Argh.
I'm sorry, i know this sounds ridiculous but i could really do with some kind words or advice or anything.
Please.

[Stellata]

You don't have to be 'perfect' at something to enjoy it. In fact, striving for perfection can take a lot of fun out things.
At the same time, I appreciate that sense of satisfaction with a job done well. This need seems to be constantly disappointed in you right now. That's a lonely, angry and sad and frustrated place to be, I know.

[Chloé-Kiana]

Heya, i no hwo you feel, my confidence is non existant, but i kinda been hrown in at the deep end and have to work to live cause im pretty much on my own...but its a struggle everyday ....your def not pathetic, things can be very difficult with no confidence, but just try your best to enjoy your anniversary hun, and dont take things to heart too much, no one is perfect at everything xxxchloe

[Ingenue]

Thankyou very much guys. I took into account what you said & i went for a shower & tried to calm myself down.
I guess the main thing is that i enjoyed the dance lesson, I think it was the criticism from a friend that hurt the most.
But yes i made it through the night okay and i feel much better so i wanted to make sure i said thankyou to you both.
=)

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