Triggering (SI/OD) - Scared and confused

[Lexis981]

I am so scared and confused right now.

Tomorrow i have a doctors appointment and i'm planning of asking for help but this is where it gets complicated. A year and a bit ago i took so many overdoses that i lost count, that seemed like all i did and i was knocked out most of the time. Somehow my family never found out they just thought i was being sick and sleeping all the time was down to post-tramatic stress. I got referred to a pychiatric nurse but never told her anything, i just said what i thought she wanted to hear. Anyway i got my life back on track and stopped taking overdoses. It's only lately that i have started to self harm. But it's rapidly got worse and i'm lucky if i go without cutting for a few hours. Its all i think of and its taking over my life. No one knows about it and i can't tell my family and i've tried to tell my friend but i backed out.

My mum doesn't know about the doctors appointment and i will do anything for her not to find out. Now i've got to figure out if i tell the doctor everything or just about the SH. But im scared incase he tells my mum.

Has anyone any advise on what i should do and what i should tell the doctor.

p.s - i am 16 years old

[MrsCoulter]

I too am off to the doctor's tomorrow to discuss some things so well done on being brave enough to sort things out :) *hugs*

As you are 16, your doctor cannot tell your mum what you have discussed with him/her, and he can't legally tell your mum you were even there.
If you were under 16, I think they are obligated to inform your parents you were there but wouldn't discuss what you talked about with them.

Anyway - I'm not sure what mentioning all the overdoses would entail, as I told my doctor I hadn't overdosed (mainly cos I don't think I have - I took a lot of pills once to make me sick but it wasn't with the intention to die). As for Self harm- no harm can come from mentioning it. I mentioned mine when I went a few years ago when I was 16, and he didn't really bat an eyelid tbh - just referred me for counselling.

If it were me, I would try and be honest, because I wasn't honest a month ago and now I'm suffering for it (hence why I have to go back tomorrow) so be as honest as you can. If you haven't tried to overdose recently, there shouldn't be any reason he would class you as a major danger, (enough to put a flag on you I mean). But in the long run, I think as much honesty as you can bare, is the best thing. If you find it hard to talk, write it down- that's what I'm doing.

Anyway the best of luck and keep us informed xxx

[88shelz]

i was 16 when my bf took me to the docs about my MH
my parents never found out until i was in Hospital severly ill from an OD.

as long as you are not in immediate danger then they shouldnt tell you parents or anyone else

[88shelz]

PS i thnk its great that you are getting help. good luck

[nowhereman]

I think it's great you're getting help too and so brave of you. That first time is always the hardest. Personally I think you should try to tell them everything as it sounds very serious what you've been through. If you don't feel able to maybe you could write it down or print off this thread, I've done that before. I really hope you get the help you need and deserve. good luck and let us know how it goes.